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2012-02-12T20:11:00.000+08:00

hello:D
me got a new pet:D
its a snail:D

it is a snail tat 'runs' very fast
so its name is flash
me have yet to give flash a proper home
but me gave it food and soil and a little plant for now
me gonna find stick and more soil and create a small pool
according to the website thats all they need!
yay! dan i shall give it some moisture everyday by spraying water:D
haha me love flash cuz flash is quiet
and not messy! i think flash shld be easy to take care:D
maybe with flash, i will use less com and stay at my table longer:D
whee~okay i shall stop talking like and idiot
anyway flash was found in the rubbish bin i have no idea why..
but anyway it is a fun addition:D
study went well so far...
just tat i am a little lost as to how to study family and social issue...
but i shall try my best:D
okay till here now~ goodbye!

2012-02-10T00:26:00.001+08:00

ahahah cute or wad???? the giraffe is so damn cute!
okay today went to sch late becuz
1. i did not want to go sch tgt...like cuz of wad happen ytd kinda hurt from ur actions i mean ya u are mad we apologised at least say bye..not storm off at least we knew it was our fault rite?
2. i was so lazy to wake up went back to slp after my dad woke me up and only had 30 min to prepare
and i cant rmb wad i planned last night
3. i could not decide if i shld wear black top or white..end up wearing white cuz my mood is depressing enuf
( black is known as the attention seeking colour i have no idea why)
4.i FORGOT to take wendy's present the one tat i spend so much time in making it
okay so i manage to reach sch half an hour after class start
bumped in to kenji at bishan and we went to sch tgt
talk about random stuff etc its so fun to trick him cuz he is so blur at times
dan reach class and dan it occurred to me that i forgot to buy poppers
end up we had the class to tear up unwanted papers and waited patiently for the end of the lesson
shocked wendy by suddenly screaming and throwing the papers
she tot it was a celebration hor the last day of sch
but really it was for her thank u party
after tat i gave her her present on behalf of the class

and she was touched i think?
all my effort i felt was stolen in a few min after she receive the gift...
i tot it was only rite tat i explain to her the details as i was the one who made it
who will know the piece of art better dan the person who made it?
but on someone had to tell her the info of the gift without doing it
like for tat moment i felt like tat my efforts were stolen
yes it was a class gift but i felt like i shld be the one telling her about it
but wad can i do? go to a corner and draw circles....
just keep quiet like i am fine wid it
anyway after the gift we had food
and it was pretty good the food i guess?
yeah dan after tat i decide that i shld go home cuz there was nothing else to do le
went home wid sufi and we talked about scary movies etc
and about music two of the few things we can relate to wid one another
yeah dan i went home wid a cup or mr bean's pearly the only thing i drink from mr bean...
went home and felt like sleeping already but i did not want my drink to turn diluted so i had to finish it
watched confession of a crime while drinking good show good show
dan after tat i went to slp..i can never never fight the calling of my bed heh
maybe i am just so tired from all the shits in life tat my body is telling me tat i shld slp
and let all of them be gone for awhile while i am in safe hands of my bed
so i selpt all the way till like 7 plus..
but i dunno why as i am typing this i feel sleepy....
oh gosh i need to do smt about it...i shld stop sleeping so much
though they say sleeping can burn off more calories dan when u run
maybe tats why i am skinny...lalala
okay i shld probably just go back and study till my bed calls for me again
dan i will answer it and burn off calories for the next 8 hours..
goodnight for now! goodbye!
~~maybe i am so self-centred tat one day i will loose all my friends~~

2012-02-09T00:06:00.000+08:00

hello
its after gazillion years since i blogged
anyway i was busy wid the 2 test this week
the first test was good
did not waste my time and effort on memorizing
today's test was...crap
so i shall not talk about it
got a scolding from my second sis due to todays' test
ask for help at night and cause her to slp at 1 50 plus
i slept at 2 plus
which cuz me to be so sleepy today
tat brushing my teeth was so hard
gosh i nearly died on my way to sch
saw my senior at paya lebar
she hugged me so i had to hug back even though i was tired
dan had to smile and chat a little
oh gosh tat short 1-2 min of interaction was draining me
dan i was zombie-fied for the rest of the trip
and i keep doing things tat embarrass the ppl around me
which is nothing new...
today is a bad day
going back home was a killer too
smt happen and i really dun want to talk about it anymore
sometimes i wish i dun have friends dan i can be who i want
not having to care about my friends feeling
having to be fake some times just so i can keep the friendship
i just want to be me
i feel like hanging a sign on me
only be my friend if u allow me to do wadever i want widout having the worry tat u will dislike me
yes tat would be nice...i would probably end up wid no friends..
which i will probably die cuz i hate being lonely...
v-day is coming it wil be the 18th year i spend it alone/wid friends
lalala as usual...
okay tats all for now! ggod night!

2012-02-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

today was the first time i cried becuz i was so stress about sch work
first becuz i got presentation tmr
second is cuz i got a test tmr and even though i finish reading every page but nothing went in
and i could not answer my friend when she tested me just now
and u know wads the funny thing?
nobody knew i cried at home no one
see how good i am at crying silently?
it comes wid training
so wad if they know i am crying
all they do is ask me to not cry
and dan get frustrated at me for crying tats all
which is not one bit helpful in comforting me
okay after crying i feel so much better
and i apologise for using f words in twitter...
thank you byebye
oh before tat someone call me mei nu (pretty girl) in fb which made me happy:D
lol since a long time someone said tat
okay byebye! shall suck on the comment and bite my teeth thru the shits bye

2012-02-02T19:47:00.000+08:00

fancy some tea sir?
haha okay this photo was taken long long ago
but i just decide to edit it on my way home in the train
which can help me to kill some time as the journey back is pretty long
i watermark it eh! but very very small at the bottom left corner
which is so so small becuz i dun want it to spoil the pic...so yeah...
okay today pretty much nothing happen except for the fact tat i was late for sch...
my dad woke me up at 6.45 but dan i fell back to slp
and dan i woke up at 7 plus and ask myself why is it so bright?
the funny thing was, after asking myself the question, i went back to slp...
lol but i think 10-15 min later i woke up to check the time and dan tada
i woke up immediately cuz it was 7.45 le!
which was the time i am suppose to get out of the house..
so i manage to get out of the house in 30 min...
good job horkuan! good job!
okay anyway was late for half an hour
but the good thing was wendy have yet to start lesson
which means i was smart enough to walk to class instead of running
oh gosh the first thing my sis 'said' to me after her one week long holiday
was why are u not studying? u got go sign up for the holiday thing or not
blahblahblah...oh gosh..i am like..wadever!
anyway tmr i am gonna watch movie! cant wait!
oh and today i made a comment about my sch's toilet cuz i was so freaking piss by it
i said that every time i enter the toilet i feel like i am in second world country
cuz the bloody flush dun ever seem to work...oh gosh *faints*
*pick myself up*
okay i shall stop here now byebye~
*faints back on the floor*

2012-02-01T09:52:00.000+08:00

build me a castle make me the princess
hide me there so i will feel safe
hide me there till it is all over
okay its another photo that i took with my phone with effects added to it
well yesterday i was trying to watch finish you're beautiful
a korean drama which is so freaking nice i swear
maybe becuz i sometimes wish i was that girl in the show
haha i would have never watch the show if it wasnt for this guy in the show name jeremy
he is so super cute so hyper so clueless about wads going around him
dan there is shin woo who is all so gentleman secretly doing all he can to protect the girl
dan there is tae kyung who appears like an asshole but he is actually very nice to the girl
hide her secret bought her things so she can feel like a girl while acting as a guy
aiya so u probably guessed it...its a korean drama about a girl who join a boy band
to cover up for her brother while he was away...
dan somehow along the way the three members in the grp start to like her
they each did smt special for the girl
like jeremy show her his treasure bus, only let her hold to jolie the dog make juice for her
cheer her up and make her day
shin woo help her every time she was so freaking close to getting expose
cuz he already knew that the girl aint a guy since they met...
and he tries to do all the small little things just to try and confess to her but as all drama do,
he never got to do it...cuz either the girl got smt on or the girl was too clueless about him confessing
and for tae kyung, he was nice luh fetch her here there everywhere
bought her clothes and pin and save her many times
too bad it was a drama but i can still dream a dream
this morning i feel so tired even though i slept for like 8 hours plus i guess it was due to all the dreams
i had like so many dreams last night
most of them were sad dreams....so i think i cried in my slp...
there was one that i rmb so clearly maybe cuz it was smt tat i want to say to someone for a long time
and i only have the courage to do it in my dreams
i can clearly rmb one sentence which i think was probably smt i really want to tell u
well it was a tiring slp but i survived
if it was so tiring already in my dreams i think it would be 10 times worse in real life
anyway there is nothing much to blog about sch becuz nothing much happened in class
except tat we are always playing truth or double truth
which i rmb tat i said smt ytd which i probably shld keep to it
keep to it and move on drop it and move on:D
yeah the photo/things are slowly getting blur
everyone is packed in their own life
ppl are feeling stress out
everyone have their own problems to due wid
i can no longer find someone to share my trouble with
no longer someone to hear me and understand the whole story
maybe i am to blame becuz in the first place i dun really trust anyone with all my stuff
its all over the place maybe one day if i die,
maybe the only way to find the mystery to my death is to get all the ppl i shared my things wid tgt.
okay i am just saying okay? i am not thinking of suicide!!!!
i am stronger dan tat cuz i know dying wun solve a damn thing
my shield is made of diamonds it takes more dan a scratch to hurt me
and i wanted to say smt but i forgot...till here dan! goodbye!

~~As much as it hurts you it hurts me too~~

~~It stressful to be in this situation and~~

~~All I can do is to push it to the back of my head~~

~~Stop thinking tat u are the only one suffering~~

this was done on purpose no your com is not screwed up

2012-01-31T00:27:00.001+08:00

just wanna say..
I AM A STEP CLOSER TO FINISHING LIFE SPAN!
yes my life is pretty much as boring as it is...
HAH! byebye~

2012-01-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

hello!
i specially fold tiny boxes to take this photo!
and with a little help from the application tat i got in my phone:D
needs a few words to make it complete cant find one
cuz i am never really good in my english..
a b3 in olvl is call a miracle HAHA
nice or not? its a kind of relieve to me
to take nice photos:D
okay today is unproductive
quite unhappy wid myself
the only thing tat i am happy wid myself today is me going for a jog
after a million years
i swear my heart got fatty deposit already..
cuz running is a little more difficult dan usual..
oh well at least i am doing smt about it now..
time for me to go revise on grp work! and cramp some stuff in!
did revise on life span so its good its good
but i can do better! okay till here~ byebye

2012-01-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

hello today went to sch for project
it was erm nerve-wrecking..
many bloopers etc
aiya got one part i totally lost it and started laughing like mad
dan started to cry dan started to laugh again..
just wads wrong wid me?
anyway manage to finish filming it today so yay!
okay anyway haiya..ok nvm
i cant tell wads real and wads fake anymore
okay tats all byebye
tsk wad a short post oh well byebye

2012-01-26T23:21:00.000+08:00

hello!
guess wad? i forgot to take photo of wad i wore today i am so bloody sad with myself!
LOL but it isnt smt very important..hahahha
but anyway just to say, i love the dress so so much!
LOL and its my first time wearing heels to sch!!!
lucky my heels was the comfortable one and easy to walk in and not too high
butbutbut i trip this morning while running for the bus like a mad woman..:D
dan i immediately stop running and just walk to the bus stop and miss my bus..
heh lucky i never fall down..wa or not it will be super embarrassing lor...
okay anyway smt happen in class today
well all i got to say is...
it wasnt anybody's fault
things happen and we just have to take it as it is
to not blame anyone
but to cool down and try to understand each other's point of view
look on the brighter side...
after this u will know ur grp members better
know wad they are aiming for
because every time you looses something,
you will gain something
there is only this much help i can give to you
the rest is up to you if u wanna take it or leave it
your life is how u view things
yes u may be 'brainwashed' to think and perceive things in a certain way
i am sure u are a smart person, there is nature and nurture
if nature made u this way, there is always nurture
okay anyway lets just put this aside...
to my sunflower friend,
u know i will be there for u
an ear to listen to u
a shoulder to let u cry on
a crazy personality to go crazy wid u
and time for u to vent all ur frustration and stuff
if its too much for u to take, share it wid someone u trust..
tats all i can do as a friend
anyway lets move on to the next topic
i really dislike it when someone say horkuan i got smt important to say to u
LOL yes yes i dislike it
its so serious so scary
u wun know wad to expect...LOL aiya in other words just tell me the point straight widout saying the above phrase luh...HAHAH
okay it was just a random topic...
oh anyway today's presentation was good!
wendy said tat the video was good! wa my hardwork was not wasted!
i am so proud of myself and my grp:D:D
anyway i gtg slp now!
and wake up early to study tmr morning!
cuz i got no mood and too tired to study now..haha goodnight!

2012-01-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

hello!
MY ICA FOR GROUP DYNAMICS IS OVER~
*pops open a champagne* HEHEH
i am so so so happy u know????
i was like 'yay!!!" immediately after the whole thing
yups~ i think everything went according to plan and therefore i am happy
it wasnt an emotional activity like i tot it would be
so no one got emotional and lol they actually laughed during the activity!!!
so i am glad~
yup and today is the third day of cny!
means i wore smt new to sch today~

lol sorry! i cant rotate the photo so just live wid it!
hahah anyway i pair it wid my handy danty black rubi shoe:D
i so need to find another same pair just in case
now i cant imagine my life without tat pair of shoe!
okay so i think today kinda lookbook a little?
tmr gonna wear heels to sch! just for fun u see
and plus i got presentation~ so it sort of fit in to the whole thing i guess?
yay dan i can wear my pretty green dress which i love so very much!
okay time for me to go off now! to revise and to show and to slp!
so goodnight! goodbye!

2012-01-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

WHEE~ HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
i am like so freaking late in wishing but NVM! its better dan nothing~
i finally got time to blog~*pats myself on the back*
okay so before cny, i have been cleaning the house
helping my sis to do their cleaning
which means i no study at all gah!
and its always morning till night until i no energy left...
haix sad life...so much catching up to do!
okay and dan on friday i had to do the prawn roll thingy...all by myself
i could have **** cuz its cny i cant say the word...
and its freaking a lot and to do it by myself alone at home it just plain boring
time past so slowly...gah!
okay so here are the pictures of me doing it:

i never take photo of the ones after its fired...cuz i lazy..LOL
okay dan when my mum came back i got so sick of doing it that i fell asleep on her bed~
HAHAH why her bed? cuz it was the bed nearest to the kitchen...HAHAH
i was that sick of it to tat extend...
anyway she came home and my second sis came home and we made the rest of it
on saturday, 2nd sis mum and i went to chinatown to walk walk
omg! so packed....gosh okay anyway we walk here walk there
and it was so hot that i can *** gah!*faints dramatically*
okay got back home and the making of prawn rolls continues...
sunday is spring cleaning again
hahah its not like my house is even huge or wad its just 5 room
but every year we make it seems like it is a mansion with 5 levels...
okay but we manage to clean the whole house before 12 midnight
oh dan we had steamboat at night before we finish cleaning..
and my sis friend from sweden came over to join us too
hahah wad an unusual sight!
my mum made all her food look like restaurant style...LOL
just cuz got angmor coming... dan we all have to use chopsticks and the chinese spoon to eat..
do u know how hard it is to eat prawn with the thick chinese spoon???? do u? do u?
okay on to monday~ the first day of cny....
hahah woke up at 8 to go malaysia
oh gosh i need my sleep
so i dress in:

hahah see still trying to be lookbook style...
shoes are the one from rubi the 5 bucks that i bought cuz dun buy can ***
hahahah okay luh... dan my sis say i chao lao
means act old...i think?
nevermind i like can liao
my mum say i nice can liao
okay dan went to malaysia bus ride there was pretty fast it was a rare thing during cny
but dan when we reached malaysia custom..dengdengdengdeng!!!!!!
longlong queue!!!! gah! *strangles myself*
okay nvm...dan after we cleared the custom we are off to my grandparents' house:D
oh yeah~ had lunch there and ang paos~~~
lol dan went to auntie's house, uncle's house, auntie's house and auntie's house
every stop eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat
oh dan played black jack
and i never win or loose any money which is a good thing cuz...
every time play wid tat uncle of mine sure loose one?
everyone sure loose one...heheh i was smart to pull out when i got back all my money
cuz at the last round my uncle won big big or smt dan everyone have to pay him big big...
HAHAHAHA i am smart!!!! LOL
okay dan came back to singapore in a very tired state
never visit so many ppl's house in a day before..
and eat so much that we totally skipped dinner...
okay dan today i never go anywhere so no need to where new year clothes:D
wore my shorts and nyp shirt just in case someone come visit
which apparently no one..
except my sis sweden friend...
taught him how to play mahjong
LOL before that played 3 legged mahjong wid mum and sis
i won~started of wid $0.00 cuz i got no coins
so i borrowed $0.60 from mum
dan i won $2.10 so i return $0.60 to mum
so i got $1.50 hahah
feel so happy~LOLOLOLOLOLOL
okay tmr is still cny shall wear new shorts~ wid old top...HAHAH
okay and its ica tmr...oh no!
i hope i will do well! all the best to myself!
and i shall go off now to shower and to bed:D
goodnight~

2012-01-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

hello hello!
okay i was lazy to blog ytd so i shall blog about ytd and today tgt
the only interesting thing tat happen ytd was 10-20 min before grp dynamics tut
we were sitting outside the room for lecturer to come
and wenyang was making a lot of noise! so annoying!
so i told him u shut up i shut up
so we ended up doing sign language our version of course
dan it was funny cuz it was kinda retarded
hahah he was opening a 'door' while i slamming the 'door' in his face haha
it was pretty fun while it lasted~ plan retardedness:D
well once in awhile its fun to do so~i still have childhood:D
or maybe just young at heart~
okay tats about all for ytd...
today jim came to class and we celebrated the jan bdae babies bdaes
but before that a few of us went to amk hub to get food and presents...
yeah i had mos burger~ long time no eat i think i damn unhealthy liao le lor haiya
since long time break resolution might as well just work on the exercise more part~
okay dan we went back to sch and celebrated the bdae
and dan for yu sheng i ate none~ i did not even toss...
as for the cake i did not eat too...
well i dunno why but the chocolate makes me sick..so i gave it to lynette
lol~ i simply did not lo hei cuz there was too many ppl doing it and the plate so small...
and to lo after ppl lo is plain awkward..so i never lo~
aiya but its not like i never lo before so ya lor...
anyway its good tat we had yu sheng today so tat our non-chinese friends can experience it! yeah~
oh today was probably the worst social issue lesson ever...
i am totally speechless...shld have chosen to go to the toilet when wendy ask the ques
so i can avoid it...sigh avoidance again...
never like it when they touch on the topic...cuz i have yet to come term with it
which is smt tat i just realise i tot i got over it
when she ask me i was totally stun...
omg why ask me...i tot if i dun raise my hand for the first ques i wun have to ans the second ques...
i can feel the whole class looking at me...just wanna hide in the toilet...gah!
well i hope i answer the ques without hurting anyone... if i did i am sorry
i did not mean to do so.
i was speaking from my heart honestly
it was tough to answer wendy though
anyway lets put this aside...and face it some other days
i cant bare to touch on this topic again during exam period...its just me.
anyway today, i did NOT sleep during gsm~
but the lecturer was so lame tat twice atika told me she want to throw her shoe at him..HAHAHA
his jokes very lame i cannot stand it...lol i shld seat on it rite?...omg why am i so lame...
i kena influence...HAHAHAHA
okay so finally gsm was over and went to class to slack a little
and dan we started to play truth or double truth
hahhhaah dan we started to ask about relationship
and dan tada! all the emotions come up...crap...LOL
i think we damn funny lo! want to know but when start sharing dan cannot take it le
but after today i realise things may not be so bad after all
it was just in tat moment of anger everything seems like a disaster
but after when u look back, there is actually quite a few good things tat happen which is enuf to cover up the bad so it isnt so bad la...
okay tats all for today~ i shall go jiayou jiayou jiayou lo~
goodbye~

2012-01-17T19:32:00.000+08:00

maybe sometimes stopping to listen to wad others have to say isnt so bad

because they may just make some sense

sometimes before talking back, stop and listen

because they may have something that they want to point out

sometimes before putting blame on others stop and think

cause maybe it was nobody's

sometimes stop blaming urself

because sometimes its really nobody's

sometimes before defending urself stop and think

maybe the person is making some sense

sometimes when someone gives up

its not tat they never try

maybe they really did but now they dunno wad to do anymore

sometimes they just cant be bothered

there is a limit to everything..

i wonder how much more i can take

how long more can i last

before i blow up and loose everyone

2012-01-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

hello hello!
today we went to cheng su lan childrens' home somewhere at serangoon
i can never rmb which part of singapore we visit...
aiya but know the place we going can liao rite?
u can always take taxi...
just tat now a bit ex uh....but it shall always be the last resort! HAHA
okay so anyway the trip there was good
just tat the sun uh was not very nice to us...
anyway the home looks slightly better dan wad i tot
they got tv bigger dan my house de
but i guess its one of the little things they have in life tat they can truely treasure?
yeah the rooms are pretty okay i guess?
but so many ppl sleep in one room eh
but i figured the kids there are pretty smart
saw one girl who return from sch and was from RJC if i never see wrongly the badge..
so yeah! haix and me eh? proper good home still end up wid results like shit...-.-
okay anyway my motivation to study for exams when from 100% to 50% in like 5 min
gah someone killed it.....i tot i only got 4 exams to study for... according to timetable
and dan turns out i got more dan tat! i got 2 hidden ones...-.-
stoopid timetable cheat my feeling....:(
okay enuf of it.i shall go take a shower and begin my sad journey HAHA
okay my sis still bathing..gah!angsty kid!
wads the point of helping u when u just want to harm urself all over again
u see urself struggling to walk just now after the field trip?
u tell me are u functioning, thinking properly?
act tough only is it?
u dun love urself how can u expect others to love u?
really we can just wash our hands off u and just let u die
if i may put it in harsh words
but for the fact we treat u as a friend at least stop doing things tat make us worry for u
look at how wy face was when u had trouble walking
pls is tat how u really show love and care to the ones u love?
is making them worried for u the way u show it?
anyway i shall stop here and go show may u read this and reflect on it
goodbye:)

2012-01-14T01:12:00.000+08:00

i need to find peace..
hi guys!
there is nothing much going on this week
except for daily bad hair day due to the haircut-.-
yeah pretty much it...
everyday is just project project
or simply fall asleep due to exhaustion..hahaha
i haha for wad? its not even funny
anyway i am taking a small break from project
doing stop motion pic video for one of the project
and i am doing it myself becuz its pointless to get everyone to stay back just to see me draw and take photo
so yeah plus they oso dunno the history how would they know wad to draw?
so yeah i shall do this part of the project myself
tmr or maybe sun i shall go to tampines inter to buy my skirt
tat all so pretty orange skirt for chinese new year
sigh chinese new year is coming
and right after tat is my ica for grp dynamics...for once i wish i did ica first
at least dan i can celebrate cny in peace...GGAAAHHHH!!!! *pulls hair*
everyone seems to be lost in their own world
oh and dan now i got nothign to blog about..
maybe i shld go joggin tmr
this week i eat too much unhealthy food le...after breaking my new year resolution
i just lost control i guess? gosh so unbecoming of me...
today i sleep like a pig woke up at 10 plus
ate breakfast stone in front of tv for awhile
dan went down to get ingredients to cook lunch
dan stone in front of tv again
dan went to slp again...
dan eat diner and dan started on my projects...
well at least i am well rested now!
heh mum said my fried rice nice eh! hahah duh of course got so much time to slowly cook how can not nice?
yeah...pretty much tat was my day! i shall stop here now
so i can finish project and start revision tmr and on sunday
till dan~ goodnight!

2012-01-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

hey guys! i am currently taking a break from my project cuz its driving me insane..

i hope i can just grab hold of one of the umbrella and fly off

as usual wads new? ytd i almost pulled my hair out cuz of my project to

its just so insane when u think u have done everything but u did not

and nobody is there to help u -.-

okay anyway the project i am doing now is better? cuz my grp mates are helping each other out

i fell asleep just now at around 7 on my bed cuz i was so tired from staying up late and waking up early

slept till 9 plus and sis was screaming and storming around the house making a big fuss

seriously sis? if u dun let me slp i will still end up slping freaking early cuz i am just plain tired

u dun let me slp i will still fall asleep while trying to get my work done

so end up i will do nothing at all

so stop kicking a big stupid fuss everytime i take a nap at night

cuz its freaking annoying

u are a night owl i am not

stop expecting me to be like u

its not me to stay up late its not me to study so late in to the night

plus u are not perfect no one is so stop thinking tat u are

stop saying how fat other ppl are

stop saying how ugly others are

stop saying how stupid ppl are

stop making judgement about others

god sometimes i wish i can just scream at u

telling u to shut the fuck up

stop being so stingy stop being so mean

but who am i to judge u?

i am not perfect myself i have my flaws

but i seriously think u can treat humans better

we may not be as cute as ur pet birds

or as obedient as them

or not argue wid u like them

but tat does not mean u can be mean to us

okay enuf about my sis

i shall get back to my project now!

guess wad? i feel ugly again ugly in the sense tat i think my personality just plainly sux

how sure can i be to say tat i really do have friends who really dun mind my personality?

i am not very sure

how sure am i to say tat when i am in trouble i know who i can turn to

actually no one

all my rants a all over the place

some here some there becuz i feel like if i continue to rant to the same person i would loose them

how many times have i lost a friend cuz of my personality?

countless of times

really who will want to be wid someone who gets annoyed easily?

no one i am sure

but wad can i do? how do i stop myself from getting annoyed?

how do i let ppl know tat my limit to things is quite low when i am not in the mood?

i dunno wad i ca do

hah maybe i will just live happily ever after wid a doggy when i grow up

ppl shld stop talking to me only when they are in trouble

when they are upset

so bloody irritated tat u use to be so nice to me

dan when things change u start to treat me like shit

and when u feel down u treat me how we were

i am flexible but even rubberband snaps... get a life

choose how u want it to be and stop testing things..gah!

goodbye ppl more rantings may come up soon due to the projects and ica etc

it just drive me crazy so hard to think positively...

shall just drown in my projects and slp it off wash it of wid the sound of water running down my ears

bye!

2012-01-08T23:10:00.000+08:00

hello!
i have a new hair cut!
its obviously shorter-.-
waaaaaaa i want to cry man
kept my hair for such a freaking long time and now become short again
just cuz i was blind to see how much the hair dresser is gonna cut it..
anyway i feel like i got no more hair cuz my head feels so freaking light
ok i shall try to finish this post by 11 so i can do up my script for presentation
and so i shall stop complaining about my hair and start proper blogging
anyway i just broke one of my resolution for this year which is to not eat fast food for a year..
and i broke the damn resolution on saturday after OH cuz i was so freaking hungry
okay nvm...friday OH was okay i guess?
nothing new... took a few groups of visitors and talk some things about my course
dan evening went to the atrium to talk to ppl who visit the booth
from 6 plus till 8 there was no one so we started to talk
and my lecturer was with us dan we were so bored to the extend tat we
including my lecturer start to play wid my camera ring pretending tat it was a real camera!
hahaha it was so hilarious to see my lecturer behave in such a manner
suddenly the barrier between my lecture and i dropped:D
oh and dan before tat' in the afternoon
hamizah and i went to walk around the sch to see other sch
hahah and when we were at SIT' smt funny happen
which made me laugh like a mad woman~
we were walking there looking at their booths and there was a band playing..
dan when we walk pass the booth' they started singing 对面的女孩
and it was so awkward HAHAH dan the two of us walk so super fast
WIDOUT looking at them...HAHAHAHA
after we walk pass them i was laughing my ass off~
hahahahah okay dan saturday nadiah bring her niece to our class
wa i tell u ar its very tiring!
omg...she so energetic and strong tat i can die
first she hurt her leg so i tot i can just push her around on the trolley..
dan in the end she enjoy so much tat she wants me to go faster and faster
and dan just by pushing her and running made me so tired!
and dan she also push me around in circles...ah it was just crazy
dan she started drawing and stuff
and she said i am pretty in the recycling competition thing
kids dun lie! so i am pretty~ LOL i am so bhb...
anyway i did some drawing wid her
and dan i had to go to do duty of ushering ppl in to nyp..
she seems sad tat i was leaving but its okay she got other big jiejie and korkor:D
okay so ushering under the hot sun was sot?
i mean seriously... 5 ppl standing in the middle of nowhere saying hi welcome
is just plain weird....
like we zi highing only..
okay anyway it got better and better as time went by and some passerby were friendly
said by to us and some even high five us?
hahaha some joined us for awhile.. which was kinda funny
HAHA dan we finally get to leave after 6
dan went to eat popeyes
which cuz me to break my new year resolution...ppffttt!
okay anyway today house got ww3 so my second sis and i went out
and tats when i decide to cut my hair
and dan after cutting we went to walk around and my sis got a lipbalm for 4.70 after discount
and shortly after she got hers, i saw the exact same one for 2.90 only~
and dan i was laughing at her~ HAHAHAHAHA
and i bought the 2.90 one cuz my lips are so dry tat it hurts!
hahah and dan i am so proud of myself
other dan spending money on my hair and lips
and spend it on my stomach today!
ate sushi (my sis treat)
and i bought yami yogurt:D
lala i am so happy! never eat properly for the few days during open house...
cuz i was simply too tired to eat better food
and to eat fruits and drink loads and loads of water
so after some sushi and yogurt and fruits~
i am back on track to eating better food!! HAHA
okay tats all for now~ goodbye~

2012-01-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

hello
today was open house
it was boring becuz i was at the atrium and was suppose to approach ppl to go to my class
to go see the exhibition
but really like nobody lor
okay so i was bored and i stone for so freaking long
and i saw i cute guy
for once i think guys wid small eyes and braces look cute HAHA i shld get a life
i think i am a mean girl
i flare up at ppl who annoys me
i get annoyed easily
i complain too much
i think ppl dislike to be wid me
sometimes i feel so lonely even though ppl talk to me
sometimes i feel like ppl are just talking to me just cuz i am there and they are being nice
i think i am such a lousy girl
anyway i decided to stop wearing contact lens once and for all
wads the point of acting pretty?
am i pretty in the first place?
someone once told me tat she think i am a bitch becuz i am skinny
is tat wad everybody thinks?
wads the point of risking so much risk my health to try and look pretty
wads the point? like my sis says
who will look at me? nobody will look at me
who am i? just another girl in the big world
really okay i shld just stop
stop ranting about the world stop ranting about others
stop ranting about life
okay nvm i shld just stop here!
maybe i am just tired tat why i am talking so much
okay byebye

2012-01-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

hey guys! its the new year its the first blog post in 2012!
hhmm there is nothing to be hyper about anyway its just another typical blog post from me
which as usual contain some rants and some bhb-ness and some random nonsense
okay today first day of sch and i was almost late!
lol i run like shit and guess wad? the first lesson was cancel-.- make me run like shit while wearing skirt...
okay anyway manage to reach class like some crazy woman on the loose
and my classmates say i look thinner...
well i think they are weird cuz i never lor
aiya to them hor i am forever different de!
hopefully its a good thing...
anyway i rush out of the house today and i forgot to bring alot of things..
i forgot to bring my grp poster
and an overdue book
i think its overdue but i am not sure cuz lynn no tell me when date due...so ya
but its okay none of the things tat i forgot to bring was important! phew~
anyway i shall shall rmb to bring those things to sch tmr and my laptop!
may i not die in the train!
i think i am killing my eyes? cuz its like super dry and painful and uncomfortable now...
so i guess tmr i shall go get it checked sometime soon
maybe tmr night! and i think my degree increase or smt
wear my spec will wear till giddy de...gah!
well if my eyes are affected by contact lens
dan i am gonna sell it back to the shop and get my bit of money back
and get a new pair of glasses
and stick to glasses forever
and dan when i am rich i shall go for lasik is tat how u spell it?
yes dan byebye specs byebye contact lens
and hello tiny eyes! okay maybe i wun so welcome it
but i am determine to get rid of glasses
cuz its quite inconvient to me luh
like when sweat or wad dan it will start slipping of my nose
go jogging also can not jog in peace-.-
dan i cant wear contact to jogging cuz i scared got reaction
tsk! anyway i did not drink loads of water today which i broke my new year resolution
and my skin is taking a troll becuz of my lack of intake of water
and today my skin was dry to the state tat it itches in class...
i have so many problem now
i shld start taking care of myself.... and i have yet to revise my work broke another resolution
but after i blog finish i will go revise my work!
yes and i shall bring a water bottle to sch tmr! so i will drink water
never eat fast food today so i am all good!
i wore smt nice today to sch i think?
a flower dress wid a blue top and my cotton on 5 bucks shoe
well i think i look like kinda sorta likea lookbook person?
did not spend any money on clothes today
ate a 4 bucks lunch which was filling and according to my calculation if my lunch is 4 bucks everyday i still get to save:d so i am all good in this resolution too!
i did not fall asleep in class
went jogging ytd!
ate my veggies and fruits today!
gonna revise my work later
so i think so far i am still good on my resolutionsssssss!
okay i shall go revise my work now!
get my eye checked tmr!
and love myself! hahah
oh and hamizah! who says no on reads ur blog?
i am a human okay? although sometimes i am like an alien from mars but yeah
i am still human!hahahaha rmb i will be here there everywhere!
to be there when u need me! hhahahah
okay bye peeps! byebye~

2011-12-31T22:56:00.001+08:00

credits to winsome who took the photo as her contact pic:D
hello guys! and gals~ LOL
okay anyway i manage to finish clearing my wardrobe and my table!
and i am so happy about it:D:D
i cant pack my bed cuz my mummy not gonna change the bed sheets so i cant clear my bed
cuz if i do dan all the dust will fall on my bed
dan i will slp on dust dan wads the point of me cleaning myself so clean?
okay so anyway my dad mum and sis and i went to catch a movie just now
after i manage to sort out all my clothes
and pack my wardrobe...
went to watch jet lee movie
hhmmm not very impress wid it
like the fighting not shoik enough eh!
not as power as Ip man...:P
i am bias...hahha Ip man cool luh plain cool
anyway dad and mum wanted to watch mission impossible but just cuz my sis watch liao so we cant watch
and dan we were suppose to have dinner at some hk restaurant
which my sis suggest but end up she was the one who say we go home eat tze char..-.-
dan when we reach my house there
she made all the order say she want eat this and want eat tat
dan she see me black face
dan after she got off the bus she went to tell my mum i black face
she is always like tat
its always about her when we go out
dan my mum will pay all her attention on my sis...
fine i shall not talk about it

shall talk a bout my new year resolutions:D
i shall have 12 resolutions since its 2012:D
all shall be measurable :D
1st: i shall drink more water! ppl who knows me well shld know tat i hardly drink water which is bad! i need better skin..hahahahahah
2nd: i shall clean my table and wardrobe once every week! cuz clearing it after one year is hardwork!
3rd: i shall wear nice things to sch instead of tee and shorts:D lookbook inspired! i shall try though cuz i dun really have much lookbook inspired clothes...
4th: spend less money on clothes! unless of course its on sale! stop buying things on impluse!
5th: save more money but not starve myself:D
6th: i shall revise my work everyday so i can score better this time for exam:D
7th: i shall plan my time better for thing like studies and friend time and family time
8th: spend less time on com! like maybe 1 hour a day? to blog to check mail etc? since i dun really use fb..
9th: start a blogshop during my first holiday in 2012:D
10th: exercise! more more more more more more i became so slacky....tsk tsk twice a week yes!
11th: eat more fruits and veggies! been eating lesser and lesser of them...no more fast food for me! no more!
12th: STOP FALLING ASLEEP IN CLASSES!!!! and STOP DAYDREAMING... HAHAHA
okay tats all for my resolutions! well i hope u guys enjoyed 2011!

i know i did cuz i met loads of new ppl
met some real good friends:D
learn a lot of things!
did a few good things!
lastly went thru ups and downs
which allows me to be a better and stronger person in life:D cuz wad dun kills u makes u stronger:D
whatever tat happen in 2011 the bad things
i shall put them aside becuz its a brand new year
and its time to start things a fresh:D
and hopefully i can cut my curse of 17 years hahahahahaa make tat 18...
i think only hamizah knows wad i am talking about
oh wells even if i dun break it i can always look on the bright side~
hahahahahahahahah which reminds me of band concert tat day
after the concert we went to eat dinner supper
and we were on the bus to I12 katong and a guy board the bus
and surprisingly jiayi and i look at each other at the same time..HAHA girls...HAHA
okay till next year~ byebye

have a great year ahead! muacks!

2011-12-31T01:05:00.000+08:00

hey guys!
i am almost done with my tables just have to put the leftovers in
and i will be done wid packing my table
i threw away loads of stuff and thus i am so proud of myself
i spend the whole day packing
and along the way i got distracted..but still i manage to finish it
hahah its always like this...
always left wid that few knick knacks tat i somehow cant seem to find the rite place to place them
i am packing as i pack my table
so the mess is slowly cleared:D:D
never knew clearing table could be so tiring..
gosh i thing i got too many things le
lalala but anyway now tat my table is neater
okay not neater but 100% x a million more neat:D
i can finally get down to study
no no
i have yet to clear the few bits of stuff...aahhh wait
i go clear them dan i come back dan i can continue wid my story:D
pls hold on~
i have no idea where to place the barbie doll chair
which i use to use it as my handphone holder....
okay i shall put it one side first
and dan put it in to the bag of barbie doll stuff..:D so smart rite?
sis sleeping now so i cant turn on the lights so it will be hard for me
shall wake up at 10 tmr so i can pack my wardrobe and clean my bed:D
till lets say about 12 like tat max 1
dan i can start studying~
whoohoo~
oh yeah am done wid clearing~ of my table for now~
anyway i think its time for my parents to get a new vacuum cleaner
cuz i use my house vacuum cleaner today and it scare the hell out of me:(
it was so bloody loud and the hose was so bloody quiet...
and so i tried to vacuum every inch of my table as fast as possible
and dan i stop vacuuming all tgt till someone was back home
the way the vacuum cleaner roar and vibrated was so scary
and i have to use it again tmr..
but the good thing is my mum will be home so it will be less of a scare to me i hope?
yeah~tmr at 12 midnight it will be a whole new year again~
cant wait for sch to start so open house can come real soon~
teehee dunno why i am so excited about open house:D
oh and while cleaning today i saw my old report card
and i must say i am impress wid myself
wid my olvl results
whoots~ all the hardwork did not went down the drain
seriously
my sch work has never been good
except for sec 2 when i was the top 25 in level
other dan tat i was a pretty stupid student...
english fail border line pass
amath boderline pass dan start to fail
hcl borderline pass dan faill dan flunk
bio from a to b
but olvl was kinda good
i got no c no d no e no f
got only a and b which is pretty good to me!
so it goes to show hardwork do give u results:D
okay which means i am motivated to work hard for the upcoming exam
cuz i want to do well again
and pick myself up again
though i am left wid little time
but i am sure if i push myself like how i did for olvl i will be able to do well again:)
so i must jiayoujiayou myself:)
okie dokie! i shall stop here now and compile the videos:D
goodnight! and see u tmr~which might be a new year already:D
goodbye~

2011-12-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

hihi!
i am taking a break from cleaning my table becuz it so tiring!
and i am cleaning it at 11 plus at night
so it makes it 10 times worse
but since i can never get my butt to move away from the sofa in the afternoon
i just have to leave all the serious things till night time
HAHAHAH anyway today nothing much happen
have been trying to clean my table since forever
and i am nearly there
cleared the rubbish away
tmr all i have to do is to vacuum and wipe it clean dan i can reorganise my things into its place:D
and dan i shall clear my wardrobe too
becuz its in a mess and dan i can try to throw out all my unwanted clothes so i can welcome my new clothes:D
dan i can go catch a movie tmr night wid my parents
dan sat sun and mon i can finally get some time off for myself to study!
muhahah wad a good start to 2012~
lalal currently addicted to video games:D
damn mtv! HAHAHA
okay time for me to continue throwing things away! so goodnight~
no pics for today! HAHAH
live wid it:D bye!

2011-12-29T00:10:00.000+08:00

hello hello!
my face looks really distorted here..opps will post a better pic later at the end of the post:D promise~
anyway today went to atika's house to do project
and it was quite ok i guess?
hahah as usual we just ran out of steam in the afternoon after lunch
gah we shld work on it so tat we can stop being lazy after lunch...
ahaha okay luh i got nothing much to blog and my show is starting so gtg bye~
and tada a more decent photo~ HAHA taken ytd after band concert
we got the same face!!!1AHAHAHAHA byebye!

2011-12-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

i forgot to say:
i wanted to talk to u
but i know i shld not
because its best if we stay like this
like we are strangers
dan to act like we still know each other very well
saw u today and i told myself
its time to let
time to move
time to get a new life
on the bright side
u are still the old u
but i am a prettier me!
*insert troll face*
HAH i won!

2011-12-28T00:36:00.000+08:00

wa wa wa got feel anot got anot???
the lookbook feel??? have have??? i think have a little bit uh!
hahah anyway today went to bvcb concert at bvss
its called le banda musica
LOL they stole from my batch the name...duh i know its good like tat~
okay met jiayi and sermei for 'dinner'

end up they never eat
and so i got myself soya bean milk from jollibean and dan the mashed potato from popeyes:D
hahah okay dan we took bus to bvss and went for concert~

the concert was good! better dan i tot it would be so yes its good!
yup dan after the conert i walk out to throw my drink and i walk pass my son kw..
gosh how can i do such a thing?
hahah i only realise its him till he call me...
hahah he oso cannot recognise me :P
anyway crap around a little dan we went to I12 katong
to see my juniors eat and it was funny~
aiya i so tired dun feel like blogging liao cuz i want to slp..so goodnite!

putting this pic cuz i think i look good..LOL wads new? teehee~

2011-12-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

hey guys i am back~ :D:D
ok ok shall talk about friday first!
okay so so there was a christmas party at aaron's house
and and there was a pot luck thing
so so atika and i went to hamizah's house to bake cookie:D
and and we got lost!
its not tat the instructions not clear uh
i think is just becuz atika and i sleepy :P
anyway we alighted one stop after the correct stop and thus we have to walk back...in the rain
hahah dan we decided to go buy the ingredients so hamizah dun have to come down
so we went shopping for the ingredients at ntuc!
and haha we got lost atntuc too...could not find the sugar..
anyway we manage to get the stuff and so we head to hamizah's house
and and i want to say uh that atika is just so childish..even she say so herself..HAHA
okay dan we met hamizah and she went to buy olive oil and hotdogs to cook lunch for us~whee~
okay dan we went to her house and she got many many birds!!!
like cute only! but dan they very noisy!!!!! i keep asking them to ssshhh
but they ignore me:(
okay tats not the point..anyway hamizah cook the lunch nice uh
not like *coughatikacough*
HAHAH okay dan we started to bake the stuff and candy canes were hard to make
so we made many many other shapes wid cookie cutter!
i wonder if the cookie got ppl eat or not....anyway
we were late for the party cuz we took too long to bake
but nvm~ so we prepared and head down to aaron's house for the party
and dan hamizah and i wore our santa hat:D and i forgot to take photo of us...damn..:(
anyway atika and i left at 9 plus? yeah dan took 168 home
receive my gift from secret santa (sufi)
and he got me a peace sign necklace...which i dunno how to match
but but at least he rmb cotton on is my fav store..though now not really..:P
okay so i appreciate it! and thanks to all who gave me cards:)
sat went to malaysia so early in the morning tat i dunno wad happen on my way there
but i know there was jam and i wanted to die cuz i only had an egg for breakfast and plus the lack of slp
*dang dang dang dang* i want to die...hahah
okay dan went shopping at ksl wid cous and mummy
my mum was like atm she paid for stuff but hor i never really buy anything cuz everything is very ex
which makes me a sad sad girl:(
i bought a new bag for 18plus sing
and a dress for 26 plus sing
and two tee from fos one is funny the other i bought just cuz it was a monster ice cream:P
which was mega cute:D
and tat was all....sunday went out wid cous to city square
dan ate sushi at sushi teh~ long long time never eat sushi liao
and and guess wad it was 14 plus sing
for a bowl of rice wid salmon and egg and onions
miso soup, steam egg, california handroll and coke float!
worth it or wad?
i eat till so full tat i almost burst! HAHAAHAHAH
dan we took a bus to dunno where and shop
ut all the shops close liao so never really buy anything
oh and i bought nothign from cs..cuz everything so ex till i want to die
even cotton on was disappointing..:(
seems like singapore things are much cheaper now~ good thing good thing:)
okay dan today morning i came back dan rush to go do project
in the end we finish within in an hour or so..
dan went rubi to look at shoes~
and i bought a pair of oxford for 5 bucks
its an old design but its still in trend
and my love for oxfords never die so it was so worth it!
even though its a bit hard.....but but its worth it~ hahahaha
now singapore really seems like a better place to shop:D
okay tats all for today~ goodnight!
tmr i shall pack my table cuz it in a huge mess...
i shall take before and after photo
messy table will make me dun want study so the more i shld clean it..HAHA
okay dan bvcb concert is tmr! all the best to my juniors!
will be going to bvss to watch it tmr! cant wait! goodnight!:D

2011-12-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

today i am like a damn freaking sad kid can ...*sniff*
first in the morning i went back to bvss for band camp
and gosh i had to wake up so early
and still i was late..lucky i am not in band anymore or i will have to run rounds..
and maybe double the rounds cuz i am the secretary....
anyway i met up wid anne and we went in
and dan they were playing games.....O.O
so early in the morning... anyway anne and i join in the game
it was not really that fun
dan dang dang dang dang
someone step in to the room and i was like..awkward.....
anyway anne and i took our instruments and went out to play~
so less awkwardness:P hahahah
surprisingly i can still play the flute
though i struggle when i have to play high notes...but that the usual thing..HAHA
anyway after awhile we got tired of playing so we went back in to the room
and dan we sat at the back and i played wid her itouch~
and i was laughing like mad woman cuz the game was so funny:D:D:D
okay left bvss at 12 and went off to meet hamizah at bugis
we went to eat bk and tada~ i found a new fav~
bk fish burger:D:D nice nice eh~
dan i was telling her..okay more like bitching about the ppl in the camp:P
ya and she was laughing at me...lalala
dan after tat we went in to bugis street
and we shop shop shop
stop each other from impulse buys:D
saw this damn chio skirt ar.........
aiya in short hor i end up never buy the skirt cuz it did not looj nice when i wore it luh...ppfftt
so i am a sad girl again!
dan hamizah was trying to get a new look hahah
finally she bought smt tat isnt very her~hehheh
i think the shirt is nice lor~lalala
atika ar...she stalk us sia....bump in to her twice in bugis street wid her sis
dan she crazy crazy say she cute so loudly...
aiyo buay paiseh one lor...HAHAH
damn walk around in bugis junction and got a christmas hat for tmr
and hamizah bought her stuff for her friends
oh we went cotton on!
but dan hor i bought nothing even though there was a sale
i wanted to buy this pair of shorts
tat was only a freaking huge sale
like if i buy i can save 20 bucks or 30 bucks
but but but i did not buy it cuz it dun look nice lor...tsktsk
i sad sad sad sad sad sad sia!
oh did i mention? i was looking for a bag similar to my old bag but i just couldnt find it
today is just a bad day*snift snift*
*cries a river* nonono
*cries an ocean*
dan home!
aiyo i so tired tat i fell asleep on the sofa...
and dan i felt so so cold!!!! but shiok ar!
okay i think i talking a lot of crap today uh...
but dun mind me cuz i shop the whole day at bugis street and got nothing at all *sigh*
on the positive side i shop the whole of bugis street at record breaking time~*tingting*
and i get to go shopping and go crazy :D:D
okay i shall stop here now~goodbye goodnight~:D

I AM BACK!

2011-12-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

hello! finally my blog post got tittle:)
i got back from my mentorship camp today
it lasted for 2 days and one night
as usual i love camps
but its the ppl tat make the difference
so obviously i did not enjoy this camp as much as i hope i would
first day of camp we have to reach sch at 8.30 which was still okay
since i was still in the 'i cant wait for camp' mood
dan when i reach sch wid charmaine i was like..crap...
there was only 6 ppl from my course
and they split us in to 6 groups
which means all of us were seperated..
and suddenly the once so hyper social work course ppl got so quiet...
we dan became the silent observer..HAHAHA
okay i shall just put I became the silent obsever in the group
basically because it was awkward at first
dan when i finally get to know some of the ppl in my grp
they were transfered to another group
which once again i am alone in the group
the ice breakers aint very helpful though
it was more of running around like mad instead of really getting to know other ppl
after tat i met this other girl name nicole
yeah we could get along quite well....
dan we had to do grp flag and cheer
tat was when like the nursing ppl step up and talk and lead
not tat i never try but when i talk like my suggestion was brushed aside
so after a few tries i just shut up lor
do wad they say etc...
dan came the amazing race..
the games were challenging and my grp i dunno wads wrong wid them luh
keep thinking of strategies.. think so much for wad?
just play luh!
penalty dan penalty 5 min nia...
haix always take so long to think of how to solve the damn thing
gosh just decide and dan play
cannot make it dan retry
reach penalty dan take 5 mins off DAN MOVE ON!
dun get them why they must finish all the games
why they want to make sure they succeed in all?
dan when their strategies dun work out dan no backup
dan think of strategy for wad sia?
anyway we got stuck at the jump rope thing for the longest time
jump jump jump dan all tired dan cannot focus on the rest of the games...
dan came the human traffic game...
nobody is listening to anybody
when someone tries to lead to solve the problem
after 1 min the rest all wanna give their own opinion
gosh at least wait for awhile more rite?
i dun see tat u can solve prob in like 1 min not even math can
plus it was so complicated...
so ya just shut up and let someone try
all the talking aint gonna help
anyway after 30 min or so they gave up
i gave up 10 mins in to the game
cuz i tried solving and i wasnt given the chance to i was killed within 30 sec...
anyway we lost in amazing race hooray!
it was the process that counts someone keep saying that
HAHA guess wad i guess it applies to only that person and her cliques
cuz they keep butting in and giving instructions *punch their face*
i aint the only one thinking this way so i am normal...
anyway after tat we had dinner
and dan we had this tower building game
it was still okay cuz obviously the rest of us who aint given a chance to lead just seat behind quietly
doing wad they ask us to do
okay maybe not quietly we just talk among ourselves
even so i feel left out cuz they always talk about nursing stuff which i dunno a shit?
social work course is always under the others during the camp:( *punch their face many times*
dan obviously smt went wrong and dan someone said it okay its the process
gosh stop the brain washing...
our tower collapse lo...wads new?
dan had to plan a performance for today in the afternoon
and they came up wid the ideas and blahblahblah
i had an idea but decide not to voice out
anyway my secret opinion of the plan was...no link at all
they are just smoking everything....
so i was super looking forward to sleep time
cuz tats only when i can get some peace and quite and no more brain washing
took a shower and the water was freaking cold like ttm
tat i did not stay long...feel so unclean...HAHA if there is such a word..
.okay dan walk around to let my hair dry and dan off to the dorm to sleep
the sleeping bag was never this inviting!
okay so i slept and woke up a few times but it was till okay
got squashed a few times etc but thats part of a camp
okay woke up in the morning and i was the last to wake up
hahah why others wake up so early sia?
suppose to gather at 7.45
they wake up at 6....hello? u know need take public transport to the first level u know?
anyway i was forced to wake up at 7.. when i plan to wake up at 7.15...
so anyway i woke up stretched a little dan close my eyes for a short while
dan woke up again to clean myself
it too me only 10 min
went back to dorm to pack less dan 10 min... total time take less dan 20 min
GOSH i finish everything by 7.20...
see i could have slept a little more
plus plus i aint the last to be ready! *prouds*
so obviously i was a walking zombie ate breakfast in a half awake mode...
nicole was laughing at me
dan we played some games...
which could break our legs...
dan play pass the message which almost sent me to sleep cuz have to wait so long for a message to be sent down...HAHA i stare into space dan i was in lalaland~
dan after tat was the performance...
some ppl can really sing! i like the girl who sang mercy!
okay dan debrief and dan they show us a video of the pictures compiled during the whole camp
and it totally just destroyed the little last bit of enjoyment tat i have in camp
because they keep spamming my unglam pics
which really was unglam till the extend tat ppl laughed when they saw it..fml
it wasnt one it was a few a few a few
and there was only one ONE bloody glam photo
fml fml fml fml fml fml fml
nicole was again laughing at me
dan they choose 24 ppl to be the next senior mentor
wanna guess? it majority nursing ppl again
and there aint no social science ppl....
funny hor? aint the social science ppl be the ones who is the hyper the one who knows how to lead etc?
no... we are merely the silent observer...
how to fight? we are the 6 others competing wid 60 plus nursing ppl... and ot pt dht ppl
i seem to be very upset wid this camp because i am
because i feel tat not everyone was allowed to shine in the camp
and not everyone was allowed to have a go to lead which was the point of the camp
okay so if i was to say one thing i like about the camp it would be tat i met some real interesting ppl?
made new friends? if they can be counted as friends
learn a few games tat maybe useful for me next time?
and learning not to smile anymore during camps because idiotic ppl may take unglam photo of u and show it to everyone every single stranger tat u dunno
one's sufferings is other's joy
this time its not my joy...i am so whiny... i shld shut up
anyway got home today and i slept like a pig the whole afternoon....
i am so behind my study schedule shld probably start studying now!
and slp real soon goodnight!

2011-12-17T13:43:00.000+08:00

hey guys! been a long time since i blog?
yeah like around one week or so:P
so sorry for the past 5 days i have been real busy
thats mean i was real tired
i think the only non-tired day was monday..LOL
monday we went to amk fsc to go there a see and learn
basically a field trip it was ok
nothing much exciting though
head back to sch and ate lunch and had lesson and project..
tuesday..hmmm cant rmb anything damn..
wed...do project tats all i can rmb....project project
end up also die half way cuz the mood not there
dan like no one knew wad to do when i dun talk so yeah
we stop after doing some history thing on vygotsky...
thursday we rehearse for friday
which was for our senior's project
we volunteered to help them out so we had to join in the rehearse
it was quite okay i guess nothing interesting cuz it was basically setting up things lo
dan half way thru rehearse 5 of my classmates and i had to go for a briefing
related to the camp that we will be going to on monday
it was totally not smt we sign up for
kinda not looking forward to sleeping on hard floor...
generally i like camps minus the sleeping on hard floor part
LOL i shall take this chance to steal some ideas for my ICA:D
no i am not a thief... hahahah cuz i run out of ideas le!
okay anyway its just a 2 days one night camp
so i wun die i get to meet new people and go crazy
provided if i sleep enough on sunday..
anyway yesterday was the main event that my seniors were organising..
and i tot my job was boring at first cuz i tot tat no one will come
not say no one but not tat many..
i was place to do the cutting and laminating of photos
and soon when the crowds starts to come
i was cutting non-stop wid my friends
and it was crazy...
anywya we saw this good looking guy and got all crazy...
hahahah he never take his photo so we stole it:P
HAHAHA yes we are crazy like tat!
gosh i was so tired after ytd tat i fell asleep on my way home in the bus!
hehheh yup i am still tired..
i am such a pig but oh well~
okay i shall go revise my work and dan pack for camp
dan hopefully when i return back from camp i will be able to update wad i did widout falling asleep:P
okay so byebye~

2011-12-10T19:34:00.002+08:00

hello!
i am just taking a short break from my taqsks for today!
oh u know wad? i am addicted to lookbook
basically a place where ppl post pics of themselves in awesome clothes
love their styles
hahaha so i am now motiveated to dress nicely for school starting from next year
and also start posting in lookbook too
hopefully i will be able to make cheap clothes look good:)
facebook games are boing nothing interest me anymore...ppfftt..
anyway i got nothing much to update so there i shall go off~ byebye:)

2011-12-08T21:05:00.000+08:00

hello! christmas is round the corner and i shall post my wish list:D
-mini holga (purple from finmydot)

-a hedgehog soft toy (from bhg)

-sticky sweets

-a new wallet definately(from bugis street exact same)

-itouch white....LOL impossible...forget it...
and i cant rmb wad..
oh loads and loads of clothes
new bag hahah okay battery running out! bye!

2011-12-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

hello guys! just a short post here!
really short one cuz i plan to read one chapter on vygotsky before i slp
anyway today had another eye openning chat wid a few of my classmates:)
it was quite enjoying haha
atika say i got a very honest personality
lke when i am not happy i just say
like when i piss off dan i will just shoot whoever pisses me off
personally i think its both good and bad cuz really
tat how i want ppl to treat be honest and straightforward to me
when u dislike me just say when u like me just say
cuz i tend to be able to pick up signs very fast
and i can tell if one is really meaning wad he says
if he likes me or not
yeah.....bad is not everyone can take it
not everyone can stand my straight forwardeness...
yeah true i lost many friends becuz of it
but i just cant help being so
i feel fake if i dun so i guess tats me
really tired and i am starting to have panda eyes..
but i am wearing specs again so i can blame it on the reflection..HAHA
today we did on forgiveness for dynamic
wad is forgiveness?
to me its when one decides tat he no longer wants to take revenge on the person who hurt him
even though he have the ability to do so
forgiveness is when on eis willing to put aside the pain and get on wid life
tats why for me i may have forgiven some ppl
but i dun usually show it
forgive and not forget
rmb wad they did is not to let those pain cuz u to hurt them more
to me its more like a lesson u learn forever
u only feel the pain when u truely care about someone
when the damage is done
not forgetting wad they did is way for me to not make the same mistakes twice
to not fall for the same thing twice
well some may argue tat not everyone who behaves the same have the same intention to hurt
but really...when u get sting once will u still stupidly stand there and get sting the second time?
to a certain extend to may want to stand there and just let the stinging continue
there is a limit
there is a limit to everything
no matter how nice u may be
u will still snap one day
just like an over stretched rubber band
i am not heartless
dun make me feel like i am one
just becuz i dun talk again those not make me heartless maybe there is more to it
maybe there is more dan wad u see on the surface
wad makes u think tat when i am quiet
those tots are not running thru my mind
wad makes u think i dun have the urge to do certain things?
do u believe everytime when i say tat i am thinking of nothing?
do u think tat all my okay are really truely ok?
do u think tat behind all my smiles and laughter are not simply a way to hide things?
wad make u think tat i am not suffering as much as u are?
wad makes u think tat i dun care at all
wad makes u think tat behind the mask i am crumbling?
wad makes u think of it
wad is it?
even a tiger has its weak side
wad makes u think i dun?
it isnt really a short post eh?
nbut i guess blogging is the only way where i can vent all the fustrations in me
to say the things i dun dare to say in fromt of ppl
behind the screen i am someone u dun know

2011-12-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

hello!!! heheh its me again~
lol who else rite? hahahah
i siao siao today....
anyway i got nothing much to say luh cuz life quite boring but just to keep u guys here
to continue reading my blog i shall just post some random things lo!
i got a new blanket~ hahaha not exactly new luh
cuz my mum just take the cover off the cotton sheet and replace it wid a new one!
oh anyway grandparents came to my house ytd
cuz my grandpa came to get his eye checked
so i met them wid my mum to accompany them to go get his eye checked luh!
hahaha so i was early and there for went over to bugis street to shop for awhile
i window shop so got nothing but eyed on a lot of things
hhhmmm wads new? NOTHING~ hahhaha
anyway i so need to go shopping soon and get tat bag get tat wallet get clothes too!
hhmmm dan waited for my grandpa to get his eye checked
and was just sitting at the lobby and saw some actor and his son and daughter...
hahah was trying so hard to recall his name but i cant
so nevermind lo! not very important anyway....
dan after the check up was done mum got them to go eat macs!
heheh free fries for me:D
dan went walk walk at ntuc hahahah so cute sia
my ah gong he look here look there like kid
like u know kids go out always quite cuz they are in their own world
looking at their surroundings
mesmerise by the lights and displays
ya my ah gong is like tat
i think is cuz his eye sight just recently got better
like after a few decades so he is just trying to absorb
and appriciate wads around him more
its like only when u loose only dan do u start to appriciate
yeah but my mum say is cuz his personality is like tat but i dun think so lo
yes so actually we shld just appriciate wad we have now before we loose it
its not everytime do we get to regain it
and sometimes when u loose it its forever
okay back to the topic
dan we went home and had dinner
dan my mum and grandma embark on making my 'new' blanket
while my grandpa was playing wid the birds:D aiya cute max luh
dan i was complaining tat i miss my old blanket cuz the cover was super duper soft and comfy
and dan u know wad my granny say?
she say aiyo got a lot of dust ah
later *sniff* *sniff* dan all the dust go in
u dun believe me go see go see!
haha damn cute uh her actions and the way she says it!
aiya but cute luh so nvm!
whee~ dan this morning they bought tau hui for breakfast for all of us
but only i eat cuz my sis no time eat
anyway had to send them go back malaysia
ahahah language gap uh
or not it would be enjoyable to talk to them
especially my ah gong
cuz he went thru ww2 uh so got stories hahah so cute
always very agitated when talking about it!
he like to share about it but my cous dun like to listen
but i can seat there and listen to him the whole day!
hahah aiya shld go learn cantonese...
hahah okay so much for nothing to say huh?
oh and today went home wid atika and we talk a lot
its always enjoyable to go home wid her
cuz somehow we can talk about loads of things...yay!
okay i shall stop here now!
too tired to revise my work cuz slpet late last nite plus went jogging just now
hahah excuses...shall try revise a little
so goodnight ppl~ bye~

2011-12-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

hello guys!
today i shall update on my trip to MBS vip ballroom
HEHEH aiyo for this event ar
i crack my brains over wad to wear cuz it was OFFICE WEAR
haix....i so clourful wear got black whit or grey things to wear?
LOL and all my skirts and dress are too short for office wear...gah
anyway went shopoing ytd and bought a polka dot skirt for 10 bucks
and a pair of oxford heels~for 30 bucks:D:D
yay! so the total cost of my outfit is 50 bucks!
cuz i wore my 10 bucks blazer from cotton~hahahah
yay~okay dan today meet ss1101 at marina bay mrt station to go there tgt
and it was raining so it was annoying...
anyway mbs is so freaking huge...hahahaha
we were to sign in lo and dan go in and seat down
opening speech and stuff
hhmmm looks like the fight against family violence is getting stronger!
and more help are given!
and and police are now helping it out too
just like wads happening in hongkong:)
yes we learn from the best dun we all learn from the best?
okay anyway it was a long long speech and i am so tired
cu zi had to wake up at 6...gosh..
so i ALMOST drift in to lalaland BUT i did not:)
yay and dan it was finally lunch time! was so looking forward to it
but guess wad?
i was so disappointed by it....
the cod fish was far from wad i expected...somehow the sauce and the toppings dun go well tgt
and destroyed the overall taste
the fish was a little too over cook for me...
the salad was just okay i like the dressing and the veg nia oh oh and the quail egg:)
dessert was ok not say very nice eh
haiya so not up to wad i expected which made me a sad kid:(
after tat went to jalanjalan
and dan we took the hippo taxi ride to esplanade..hahahah
bo liao? no luh! it was quite fun!
i would not mind spending 15 bucks for a half hour ride though!
cuz its so awesome to stand at the front part of the boat and just feel the wind going thru ur hair
and hear the wind singing in ur ears:D
and just let ur tots run thru ur minds!
okay anyway sat at esplanade there at sg river there
and talk crap and enjoy the view and the wind
hehheh! wanted to watch movie though
but i did not want to go home alone so i skip movie and went to walk walk wid others instead
it was a great day but had to go home cuz it was late already...
glad i did not get in trouble for reaching home late..
before we left khai ask a ques tat made most of the girls there cry....
well i guess the class aint as broken as i tot it was...
maybe its just me..
maybe i am the one who is isolating myself
maybe i am the one tat is broken from the class...
anyway photots will be uploaded soon
i shall go shower and slp nites!

2011-11-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

ello ello~
today was okay....nothing much....
today had group dynamics tuitorial..
and the game was ok..
so it turns out tat last min preparations is better dan 1 week preparation..
aiya okay luh not really it depends..
so anyway today i think my game was quite good and at least i had some feedback!
so it was good at least
like i know how i can improve on the game and so on luh
yeap so at least i learnt smt....
hahahaha so now i know wad i can for my ica
anyway i think everytime for grp dynamics my first try always no feedback one
like last sem counselling my first try oso no feedback..
its always the second time dan i get feedback tsk!
anywya today some of them went shopping and last min i decide tat i shall not go
hahaha i was tired and wanted to go home to finish my grp poster so yeah!
hope they have fun!
later i shall borrow a dress from my sis to wear on fri:D hopefully they will lend me smt...
haix stupid luh! why must office wear be dark colours???
its not like the office is not boring enuf..
still ned to wear dark colours to add to the gloomy-ness ppfftt
today i had to face smt tat i do not want to do
not anytime soon but under such times
i cant run....i mean if i dun go up rite
dan the thing wun be able to continue
so the only thing i can do is just to go up and face it for a short while...
awkwardness...damn....
anyway it does not mean tat i am one step closer to anything
during tat few min
i really did not trust
last time i would done it widout screaming
but now i can no longer do it
though it wasnt a prob for me to fall back cuz the worse is i just fall luh
i aint tat confident tat someone will catch me if i fall already
so wad if i have guts to fall
so wad if the consequence is tat i hurt myself
so wad if i can pick myself up after tat?
wil li still be the same
will i still have the guts to do it again?

2011-11-28T22:56:00.001+08:00

hello
michael is irritating! okay byebye:D

2011-11-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

hello!
today is a monday! and yeah there was a bdae bash for khai and hamizah and ey
aiya it was so awesome lo
hiya....the only awesome bade was in sec 3
and tat was the only awesome one
like a lunch at pizza hut
and had 3 cakes
and a few gifts which was pretty much it
haix i wish one day someone can specially just celebrate my bdae for me
like give me a suprise or smt
its always so predictable...aiya i so jealous
i want a huge bdae bash and a few gifts and some real awesome card
oh well lets wait for a miracle on my bdae someday
anyway after sch went to tm to walk walk
bought a blazer from cotton on at the price of 10 bucks
originally was 40 bucks! a freaking steal can?
omg i was so happy! dan rite i got atika to buy a long cardigan at a steal price too!!!
hahahaha the joy of buying smt at a steal:D
hehheh okay luh dan met my sis for dinner
went to eat texas chicken
it wasnt as good as popepyes eh...like the biscuit is not as nice..
chicken not as popepyes either....hahah
like not satisfying eh! so wasted eh like really unhealthy but not satisfying..:(
at least must be satisfying wad if it is unhealthy...correct rite?
lalala dan went walk walk
and dan went home and dan eat durian:D:D:D
yeah~okay la i am skype-ing wid my class ppl...
so yeah before they complain i am slamming the keyboard again i shall sign off:D so goodnight~ byebye:D

2011-11-27T15:18:00.000+08:00

attempt to look candid..a bit fail uh?

hello hello!

just a short post before i take a quick shower and start on my revision:D

yeah~ okay so friday went to charmaine's house to flim our project video...

so many bloopers! hahaha
which is funny but there were a few fustrating moments
like when everything was going well and all of a sudden someone laugh
which half of the time is me...

therefore i am not an actress~ HAHAHA

okay so we got half of the video done

but i think something is lacking
not up to standard....so i guess i will ask my grp mates if they want to retake it
i mean cuz the points are not really shown clearly

and tats the last thing that u will ever want for project

so yeah maybe we will just have to redo it!
ytd went to ikea giant and courst:D
omg! do u know ikea ice cream is now 50cents only???

but rite its no longer the caramel flavoured ice cream which i love...

but it will do cuz its only 50cents wad more do u want from a 50 cents ice cream?
yeah and dan i witness a funny sight at giant~
giant sells salmon fish like at some specific time of the day

so just rite when my mum and i were in giant

fresh salmon fishes were being placed in a big box for ppl to choose
and rite everybody just swamp there like literally!
and dan they all choose the fish
didnt know salmon was so slimmy.....
but yeah it was and it was quite gross

so while my mum was choosing salmon fish

i went to look at catfish

whihc i tot they were dead till one of them started to make some movements

which i got a shock! haha overall it was quite fun at giant
cuz its been a long time since i went there!
and rite my mum bought sushi for me to eat
hehheh and i finish it all while waiting for the shuttle bus to come:P
okay i shall stop here now or i will never be able to finish wad i need to finish!
so goodbye~ and see you:D

like the way i make my hair look:D

heart shape in the sky~ can u se it?

2011-11-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

hello:D
today had meaningful tuitorial
heh i teared again..oh gosh i shld control! HAHAHA
anway really life is full of ups and down
we manage to live thru it and still be here today
wad will it be like in the next 10 years?
nobody will know but when we know wad will happen in 10 years
we will know tat we are not alone
and wad dun kill us makes us stronger
infact we just get stronger everyday!
so yeah no matter wad hardships we face today just have to rmb
there are friends for a reason and families are there for a reason too
even if u think they wun be there for u at least someone was there
hey just think back who help u overcome those prob?
yeah so jiayou to those who are facing hardships...
yeah dan rite i was so touch by wad my friends said about me
stand up comedian and will be my number one friend
and said tat i am like a rocket
like no matter how many difficulties i face
i will still be able to move on and go upwards
it just makes me feel so touch~
okay dan there was this part about the bad parts luh
but dan hor wad they wrote was wad i know about myself
to be honest i dun see the need to change about it
actually i think i improve a lot already
the 10 year ago myself was even worse..HAHAH
so yeah~teehee~ okay i shall stop here le ba so goodnight~

2011-11-22T21:19:00.000+08:00

hello:)
today nothing much happened
pretty boring
i was pretty dead HAHA
tried to finish up the poster for project but was unable to do
oh crap the show making me cry
haha so touching~ gosh!!!!
ahahah tmr is gonna be a long day
doing project after sch can seriously kill me
i need patiance loads and loads of it
or i will probably die before i graduate from poly....
so freaking serious....
and and if i were to govern a country
i will probably cuz it to die...
i can even handle a class
its in a total mess...basic things are not agreed on
things tat were suppose to be a class thing becomes individual
aiya really luh i think it will die lo
especially if the economy becomes bad
dan the whole country will just die.....
mayb ei shld take lessons from the government..
dan maybe will i be able to organise the class and stuff
not alone but wid the class com...
or really i see us dying.....okay so much for complaining
so yeah i think i shall stop here
go fight for toilet again...and dan shall revise!
just hope tat my eyes wun hate the book
and close before i can start...HAHA
okay goodbye~see u~

2011-11-21T21:36:00.006+08:00

okay sorry for the previous post...
i shall just shut up about everything
and not say anything
shall not express how i feel
bye

2011-11-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

i think i look damn chio here la
i know i dam n bhb but yeah...HAHA too bad live wid it!
cuz its amazing how i can still look okay wid puffy eyes from all the crying!
so kludos to me!:D:D
hello! i think i can change this blog to a weekend blog liao can...
hahaha anyway this week was okay?
the most major thing happened was on wed
tuitorial sucked cuz it didnt go as well as i wanted it to be
to b honest it was totally opposite of wad i actually imagine it to be
things were two times slower
two times more boring okay maybe times a million times more boring...
and i just have to face it la no matter how much i try to make ppl sing
tell them jokes ask them to state a fact about themselves
they all ended up wanting to slp
i mean cuz its not like its my first time planning a game or wad
so obvious i tot i had an edge over the others
which proved to be the opposite
but wad i did good was that i was flexible enough to adapt to the dynamic of the grp
i did all i can i did my best to organised a game le
so thats wad i shld be happy about
but dan i dunno there was this huge disappointment in me cuz i really expected much more from myself
and it was damn freaking upsetting to see ppl falling asleep after the game luh
but i did wad i could
either way i felt really sad so i teared
went back home and i cried my heart out
i have to say i did not cry only becuz of the game
the game was just a trigger
i think its becuz its been a long time since i cried out loud
fact tat i think i am getting further and further from my friends
fact tat i dun feel like myself etc
so one failure triggered me and dan i spend a good one hour or so crying my hearts out
till i fell asleep...
my second sis make me reflect wad happen and ya la
her tone was fierce i dun like
but i realise i learn a lot lor so tats all that matters?
so yeah tmr i finally have my break to go eat ice cream!
i am so looking forward to it because its been a long time since i went there to eat
and i hope there is mango and peach and strawberry flavour!
teehee dan i will be a dman happy kid again
oh today hamizah and i were busy trying to catch the sun light to give this very nice effect and it was tough!
made us all so sweaty..:(
but yeah we did manage to catch some~ so YAY!! (Y)
okay i shall stop here and continue to stare at the investment thing which i still cant figure it out
its putting me to slp...HAHA okay goodnight!
hopefully i will blog again tmr night! see u guys:D

2011-11-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

hello to whoever is still reading my blog
heh i think most ppl think my blog is dead liao..
anyway this whole wek so busy and tired and crazy!!! i can die
last friday went to atika house to do project uh
dan she cook spaghetti haha funny sia she...
want to cook the noodles but never boil the water first..
anyway it was really nice of her to lend us her house to do our project:D
okay dan we watch a few movies and dan a horror movie
heh horror movie is 10 times more scary when u watch it wid charmaine and wenting
cuz they scream at the nonscary parts and haha they were basically making the movie more tense dan it shld be due to the sound they make
after that we talk about jim's farewell and finally home!
nothing much on monday so skip...
tues was jim's farewell to be honest
i tot i wun miss him lor cuz afterall i am not very close to him
but dan during the farewell rite i realise how much i will miss him as a lecturer and as a friend luh
but hey i never cry ok! i almost did luh but never
he taught us so many things
we have yet to learn all the things tat he knows from him
taught us so many things that u cant get from the textbook
trigger our minds wid his questions
his all so positive attitude
the help he gave me
inspiring talks that never fail to give me goosebumps
his laughter that never fail to make me laugh
his damn freaking sick jokes
his favourite finger....okay maybe not so much
the fact that he put in the effort to get to know us and to interact wid us
yeah okay so i miss him.....i want him back
oh well i guess we all have to learn to let go
wed got nothing
thurs got gsm i fell asleep...HAHAHA i cant seem to keep my eyes open in gsm
like it will never happen can????its call can die
dan i sold my ipod nano:D which makes me happy
cuz i am a hundred bucks richer
friday did project and our idea for the video went so crazy
spend my money on starbucks and i am broke like shit...
money disappearing so fast....
today mum gave me 10 bucks for lunch i end up spending all
cuz i went to eat popeyes... and to buy drink and to pay for bus fare..
i think i left wid 30 cents... like wtf? rite?
oh today went to work to give out flyers
which was my primary sch job...but the pay is so freaking good tat i have to do it...
10bucks per hour!!! omg rite???
but hor u have to give out 800 flyers in an hour lor
which is freaking rediculous....it wasnt tiring at all to me cuz maybe i am use to it...
so yeah we had like 9000 flyers to give out today among 4 ppl
like for a all girls grp it was impossible for us to like carry it around cuz so heavy rite?
so we left it at the mail box there...and dan we went to give out the flyers
2 hours later we went back to the spot and refilled our flyers...
dan aftter that we realise it was impossible to finish within 3 hours
we called the guy and dan he said to try finish as many as possible luh
dan we went back to refill more and guess wad????
the whole 6-7 packs =6000-7000 flyers were gone!
dunno to be happy or not lo
one hand happy tat it is gone so we dun have to throw it away ourselves
on the other..we feel guilty la!
but the guys was nice to not scold us and was still willing to pay us so yeah?
okay and dan i got home i feel tired cuz i had less dan 8 hours of slp
cuz i was too engross in thinking about my group dynamics..
off to do my project before i fall asleep...
anyway thats about all! so yay! byebye!

2011-11-09T22:35:00.003+08:00

hey i am like secretly blogging cuz i am sort of ban from using com at home
so yeah and my battery is dying i will blog tmr i promise when i am in sch okay?
so this is just to keep u guys reading! i am so sorry!
i will make it up wid photos:D and yup loads of rubbish:D byebye

2011-11-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

hello!!!!!! here is a goofy funny looking photo as an apology for not blogging as often as i shld!!!!
okay~ this week was....busy....
i pretty much went home everyday feeling very tired...guess i am still not very use to sch life yet..
anyway i have been a good girl and revising my work as much as can
so i feel quite proud of myself:D:D like i give myself A* for the effort
B for the progress cuz i am quite slow at revising...being a perfectionist....my mind map must be nice...
anyway we are all trying to rush our project before christmas and i think its impossible
becuz my group are so slow......C for that!!!!!
anyway we got a new teacher to teach us...
no doubt i think we were like kinda mean to her
cuz she could not really teach us or engage us
ut i think she is getting better and better! so i am actually looking forward to her lessons more and more!
which is a good thing! and i think wad she is teaching is interesting too luh! cuz its health related~
all the medical things:D:D which is my thing!!!! hahaha
oh finance is my gsm for this sem first term!
i am gnna be a rich kid!!! and u know wad is the best part?
there is no gsm for us today while other have!!! MUHAHAAHHAHAA
oh and dan i made sufi laugh so had tat he said i can go be stand up comedian~
hahahaits the funny stupid little things i do which made him laugh
and u wads the best part? he luagh at the nonfunny part of the joke...
OH!!!! and hor ytd was the most epic day in my life so far...
i went to the toilet wid hamizah
i got to the toilet first cuz she was talking to i dunno who
dan so i decide to scare her by hiding behind the pillar
i was looking on the floor for her shadow as a hint on when to scare her
i heard her voice as she entered the toilet
and so i jumped out and screamed BOO!
and guess wad?
it wasnt hamizah...it was a stranger.......HAHAHA
and she screamed wid the very shocked face!!!
and dan i found it so funny that i started laughing! and covered my face apologised and quickly ran out of the toilet!!! and hamizah was shocked lo! but it was hilarious!
just by typing and recalling wad happen can make me lauhg! so epic can?
dan in class later i asked wanying wad movie are we watching for the project and she replied i am sam
and i was like i tot is home run?
dan we both stone for awhile..
u know why?
becuz we are not in each other's group!!! hahahaha okay ytd was an epic day!
today was i fun day cuz lesson was fun gsm was cancelled and i made ppl laugh like crazy~
and sufi said he was so glad tat he came to this course and met me!
because oi was funny luh! not anything else!
but its great to know i left a mark! hahahaa okay i shall go off now to do my project so i can study for the next 4 days in peace! or maybe not~ haha
but i shall try my best to study as much as i can! okay so long~ oh and i want to say i think my eyes are pretty:D

and dan another funny goofy face~

okay and just to not spoil my pretty image i shall put one pretty photo of me and the beautiful hamizah at the back:D okay!

byebye!:D

2011-10-30T00:51:00.000+08:00

hello hello! i got piggy nose!
just reached home from charmaine's 21st bdae like an hour ago:D

i was late! and i feel so sorry for those who had to wait for me....
sorry! becuz my sis keep asking me to change..
cuz the dress i originally borrowed looks old on me...so i was asked to change it
anyway i ended up making a dress on my own wid two skirts...
i know rite? how pro am i? okay la it isnt the best
but i manage to pull thru it
i mean the person wearing pretty can liao
chey no la just joking
camwhore a lot a lot! it was fun!
and i really cant wait till like monday dan i can scare ppl!!! haha
got my grey contact lens today!

wanted the black one but no more so had to go wid grey
and hopefully my eyes wun turn red! i really hope it wun!
or i will die becuz its so uncomfortable...
gonna paint bloody nails tmr just for extra effect!
yay i cant wait! okay i am kinda tired and sleepy now so goodnight!:D

2011-10-28T13:51:00.000+08:00

hellos:D
my whole arm is aching and so are my shoulders..
damn really i regret bring tat bag to sch when i had to bring my laptop charger too
its so heavy and my laptop is not very light...
gosh anyway ytd had dinner wid sis cuz my parents went to watch movie
she treat me japanese meal:D
which is expensive for me luh but it was really good!!!!
i forgot the shop name though but it is at tampines mall level three beside courts:D
yeah i had to wait for her like so long walking around tampines mall tampines one and century square
wid my heavy bag and laptop i almost died
hahahah okay dan beofre tat went to daiso at plaza sing to get halloween stuff
lynette bought cat ears she is gonna be a cat
while i am gonna be a ghost
like expected.... hahhaha but its gonna be fun and hopefully some ppl would want to take photos wid me!!!
hahaha just for fun luh! never celebrate halloween before
trying to get myself big eye contact lens
but am so scared tat it will spoil my eyes..
so had to go to the doctor to see if i can wear it
or somehow find a suitable one....cuz i dun want to go blind..
and dan now i shall entertain u guys wid my photos:D

i got great moustache:D
it and curl:

it can be straight:

it can go down down down:

a three way moustache:

ahahaha so nice rite! no one in this world will have it:D
cant wait till mondy~scare factor:D till dan bye!

2011-10-25T00:12:00.000+08:00

hey guys no photos today
my camera i stuck wid my sis so no photos...
anyway i am busy wid projects and revision becuz i want to pull up my results so badly...
haix...okay anyway to yck mrt station was crazy
it was so packed tat there was hardly space to stand....
so we took a bus back home
which was a pretty nice ride
its been a long time since i took a long bus ride home...
hahahah wish i can do it more often
anyway i am saving up for a ipod touch white!
and its gonna take me forever if i dun work
so i am gonna find a job and earn money to buy it and earn some money for rainy days
or for holidays:D which is when i spend the most money...
and dan yeah got so distracted during project meeting just now...
feel so bad now..
and damn i fell asleep in case just now..... i swear i was trying my very best to stay awake okay...
i just tried so hard to open my eyes...tat i think i look funny...HAHAHAHAH
maybe everytime when i feel sleepy i shld tell myself tat i look funny....dan i will be awake!
wa! wad a good idea!
currently going crazy over joe brooks because he is so damn hot! and cute! LALALA
hahahah before i go insane i shall go slp!!! got a long day tmr !
but there is bio! so i am gonaa love it! goodnight! bye~

2011-10-22T23:53:00.002+08:00

hello!
was suppose to revise my work today but turn on my com and the mood to study is gone..
lesson learn when u got hte mood do the hting first..
the rest can wait
study mood is once in a few weeks...so treasure it..LOL okay i am so -.-
anyway sch this week was fun cuz there was loads of jokes!
and had two videos taken!
one is chubby bunny:

and the other is like so real random nicknames tat we came up for diff poly lo
no offence to anyone or any sch okay?
if we ofend anyone i am sorry....

okay so dan this week was pretty much like tat nothign much
and yeah there are two modules which i have to really depend on myself
cuz the teacher like skip most slides....oh well
got teacher better dan none so i shall not complain
its been a long time since i blogged
partly cuz sch is early everyday so i have to slp early thus no time to blog
and i will be too tired to blog
second is cuz i was watching warrior baek dong su
which is like a freaking awesome korean drama
the begining was interesting and here and there got some funny parts the ending aint tat bad and the songs in it is nice! so i really like the show! and yes lesson can be learn from the show
have been relaxing by watching tv..
but always fall asleep on the sofa..
hahaha see i am tat tired! yeap and friday went for facial wid mum
and gosh the auntie massage my face and eye and head till so shiok sia!
the pimple squeezing part hurts like hell though but its all for a good reason
hahah yeah so my face is smoother?
and yeah it can be both a bad and good thing to have like a perfectionist as the person cleaning ur face
she really just squeeze every pimple
on every single part of ur face till it is smooth like dunno wad!
yeah hope u guys enjoy the videos and hopefully i will take some photos and post them up so it wun be wordy
i cant stand wordy stuff it puts me to sleep...damn
i have loads of books to read oh wells! as long as its interesting~
okay see u guys soon!
byebye:D
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2011-10-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

hello!!
new semester start liao
and the lecture notes cost...$22.10
and most are like super thick!!!!!
oh wells i shld stop complaining
today i am early for sch! 2mins early..hahhaa but better dan nothing la hor?
yeah sch was great today i guess
except for so awkwardness...
other dan tat i think it went on pretty fine!
had fun getting to see my course mates again!
and we are still so insane..ok maybe i am still so insane
and i think i will not wear skirt to sch anymore unless for presentation
today i was reminded of how much i dislike wearing skirt...hahahah
okay and i forgot to bring pencil case to sch..
and now my pens are missing...
damn i dunno where they are and not seeing a green pen in my pencil case makes me feel uneasy...
i need a green pen in my pencil case!!!!! omg!!!
insecurities....i need to find it quick or i have to get a new one soon lke real soon
cuz to me its comforting to know tat there is a green pen in my pencil case
i like to write in green more!!!! oh gosh i really need it
oh and ytd, i saw IAN FANG for real!!!!
he was too busy wid his stall so i did not take photot wid him
but he look real good and tall!!! whee~~~~~~ i am so happy!!!!
okay till here got a long day tmr! so nites!

2011-10-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

hello!
i think i am falling sick so got nose block and was feeling cold...gosh....
okay so today i went to kaki bukit to help paint one of the one room flat there...
in the end hamizah and i were cleaning the pipes and doors
and it was pretty unpleasent....
okay so the pipe was black its not even brown
its black only some parts was brown...
and there was many many many spiderwebssssssssssssss...kill me....
okay anyway i remove the spiderweb wid a paint brush and i said it looks like chocolate cotton candy..
which is obviously not true and was just trying to make the best out of things...
okay and dan a bloody spider jump out from nowhere
wanted to kill it but hamizah said the whole family will come and find us
well its a good thing i did not kill it becuz after tat i saw many more spiders!!!!! kill me x2
and dan hamizah and i were trying our best to scrub off the dirt on the pipe
it went from black to dark brown and dan to brown dan to light brown
it never went white
after using like 6 sponges the pipe still remained light brown....
but i still think we did a great job judging from the amount of spiders and the state before we clean it
yeah okay and dan we were cleaning it half way something drop from the pipe....
and we freaked out cuz we tot it was a crockroach...super unpleasent
ut it wasnt...i asume it wasnt.....i got enuf spiders to care about already
and i dun need another crockroach to make it even worse...
okay and dan we gave up on cleaning the pipe cuz it was not getting any better dan light brown...
okay so the granny ask us clean the toilet door for her so i clean it
and dan i saw.....
an open crockroach egg.....first thing tat came up my mind was FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
and dan i got off the stool at lightning speed..
and one of the volunteer a lady went up to clear the egg away...
and i was there imagining the crockroaches in the house...they are somewhere just dunno where...
okay after the egg was gone.....i went back to cleaning and a bloody spider had to come attack me...
gosh get a life spiders...i am giving u a nicer place to live in stop attcking me
and just stay at a far end corner.....till ii finish cleaning
anyway after tat i was too weak to continue..so hamizah took over....
and i clean the bottom part of the door she took the top part
somehow she got over wid spiders...and i am still not...
okay dan the worse part of the day came...
there was a spider a huge one on the celling
and the lady voluteer was trying to kill it and guess wad?
IT FREAKINGLY DROP ON ME
CRAWL OVER MY NECK AND DAN MY KNEE AND DAN FINALLY THE FLOOR
omg i freaked out like damn freaking badly
tat eight legged creature got on to me made a trip while i was just trying to clean the house...
okay i got the shivers now..down my spine...goosebumps are appearing...
somehow i still manage to get back to work after jumping around...
and dan i was looking out for spiders even more after tat
but i think i provided entertainment while i was there
okay dan finally the door clean liao like finally
u know the whole point of us going there was to paint the house and not clean
cuz there is another group tat is cleaning the house..
okay so i was not too happy on tat but other dan tat i think we did a great job!
and it was fun while it lasted...hahahaha
yeah at lest now the granny got a cleaner house to live in
yay so mission accomplish i think?
oooo there model casting eh shld i go? i feel short...theres a girl at age 12, 173cm...
wtf wad she eat sia? i feel so so short now.....gosh...
okay i shall not go rite? cuz i dun think i am pretty enuf...
and tall enuf even though the model company ask me to join their company like 6 times liao
all by diff ppl in the company....haix okay...byebye
but i really want to...

2011-10-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

hey guys its been almost a week since i blogged...
anyway i shall just blog the highlight of my week:D
wednesday i went out wid py and vivien to ehub
to go sing k! okay it was my first time singing k
cuz even though my sch choir gave me a pass to join them i dun think i can sing lor...
i think the glass will break so i never go sing k before
not even wid my mum
so i was pretty shy when we first went
did not take the mic to sing or wad
just sang out loud while the both of them happily sang in to the mic!
HAHAAHAH dan i got brave and started to sing one song followed by another and dan another and so on
it was pretty fine though i cant hear myself....
HAHA but i think it went pretty well
at least the glass never break lo!
hahah did take photot wid them!!pictures below:D at the end of the post:D
yeah dan today went back to sch to clean up the class
was join by some seniors:D
well we first slcaked like freaking a lot
dan when we start we did not want to stop!
talk about being addictive!!! hahahah whee~ so hamizah and i clean the windows
and i almost fall of the table cuz the table was shaky
hahah i felt like i was surfing~whee~
oh and someone spilt coffe on the carpet....gdi....
so we had to wash it...lucky it was sunny so we went outside to wash it and to sun the sofas:D
dan went back to class to clean the windows:D
next hamizah went to clean the carpet again cuz the sain is still there-.-
nice job ar whoever spilt the coffee....
okay so after the second round of cleaning...
hamizah and i sat on the sofa and started to slack and talk about our dreams~
we got similar dreams!!!1 HAHA and we plan things out
dan after like 30 min of slacking we went back in and it was lunch time
was so lazy to go down to get food so a senior bough us ice milk tea:D
from kou fu the one i like:D i am so happy
so during lunch break hamizah and i went back to slack at the sofa and we dragged wanying along:D
we were chatting dan we started to look at the clouds and we were saying how this cloud look like wad
and dan our senior came to give us our milk tea:D
and she cloud gaze wid us!
and dan the funniest part of the whole one hour of starring at the clouds was
tat wanying said tat one of the cloud looks like a pirate ship
and dan i said tat the cloud in front of it looks like a ice berg
and tada! titanic! and we were like screaming and shouting asking the pirate ship to turn around!!!
yeah we were insane~ HAHA
dan hamizah and i started laughing cuz we joke tat the ship was carrying shirley's asos clothes~
inside joke:P hahah and it made us laugh like crazy~
i think the senior enjoyed too cuz we were just too crazy and she caught the craziness from us:P
yeah dan another senior came and took a photo of us
and we look like we were watching a big big screen!!! how cool is tat?
hahaha yeah dan we mop the floor~
and dan arrange back the tables and chairs
and dan slack again!!!
hahah hamizah and i were like playing like mad wid the ben10 thing~
hahaha we are childish:D child like wadever~
yeah dan we did the stop motion picture of hamizah smacking the 'butt' hahaha which made us laugh like mad~
dan next was me acting as ghost coming out from the cupboard~:D:D
it was funny and wanying was squealing~ cuz she was scared even though it was me~ she was taking the photos:D:D prouds~ LOLOLOL its on fb~ teehee~ i love it~
i think tat can be my part time job lo!!!!!
okay i got to go slp now! gonna wake up tmr to go house painting! excited much i cant wait! so goodnight! and i will blog about the house paiting tmr~ which i think it will be fun:D:D
oh hopefully i can go scape on sunday~ i so wanna see ian!!!! like live!!!
haha i promise i wun go crazy la okay i will see from far unless there aint a lot of ppl at his stall la!
which i doubt so but if i can just see him from far i would be happy enuf:D teehee~ goodbye~

they two figuring out how to play the thing..duh obviously not me i never step in to kbox before unlike them..
so they have a slimmer chance of spoiling the thing...HAHA EXCUSE!

sad sad me....cuz they singing korean and i am clueless...:(

muhahahaha caught vivien when she was singing py too fast liao~

this is ice lemon tea..look so diluted...O.O

this is honey lemon....it taste nice really...dun be decived by the look

sprite~cant go wrong!!

terriyaki chicken vivien and py ate this!

CHAWANMUSHI!!!!! OMG my fav!!!!!

and i am more atas so i ate ebi fry~ LOL i like~
oh and today after cleaning the class i met my parents at tm
they shop and i window shop
saw this freaking cute baby who want me to carry him!!!
awwww so cute rite!!!! hahah and his sis was begging the mum to buy her the heels!!
haha yeah i was like tat when i was young!
oh dan had dinner! yummy dinner~ had chawanmushi again~ cuz i love it~
yeah dan walk to the interchange and the was a commotion...
apparently a father was shouting at his kid at the top of his voice
and commanding him to kneel on the floor in front of him in th PUBLIC!
and everyone was looking at them
the poor kid was crying so badly and was trying to get to the dad while kneeling
tat must have hurt a lot to his knees....
i have no idea wad happen but the dad shld not have done tat in publc scolding a child in public is okay
but not making him knee down in public
no matter wad he had done there is no reson for him to knee down in public
its like a humiliation to the kid which can cuz a deep impact in him
and u know wads the best part?
i believe tat the thing happen for quite awhile
and nobody went to stop the dad or help the kid
when i reach the inter and got a view of the commotion
the dad stop shouting like 5 sec after
but looking at how the kid cried and how the father do not allow him to stand up
and force him to kneel on the floor was just too wtf already
when i saw the scene it just gave me goosebumps not cuz i was scared but cuz i was mad at the dad
i think the kid will rmb today like forever
is just likt how i can still rmb tat my sis went insane and almost kick me in the ribs while i was lying down
thank god he stopped like 5 sec when i reach
i would have stopped him and not stand around and watch
we went thru this scene in class before and i know i can stop him if i wanted to
even though he was loud..cuz my parents were wid me
and i am sure tat once someone stand up to him
more ppl will come and help the person who is standing up to him
they just need one brave soul to do it first
gdi i wish i was there earlier i hope the kid did not go thru too much truma
poor kid seriously singaporeans shld stop looking and starting helping
becuz no one deserve to be treated this way in public to be humiliated in public
in such a manner especially to kids its just too much
kids are innocent they make mistake they are naughty becuz they are young they still dunno wad rite and wads wrong
the kid dun even look like a pri sch kid okay...
and even if he was really naughty the dad shld not have done tat to him
scoldings can be done at home not in public
kneeling does not need to happen in public u can do it at home
i think for a kid to kneel in public and be shouted at is just as bad as public canning becuz everyone can see
i wish i was there earlier i know if i did maybe the kid would be less trumatised
even though i dunno how to stop the dad at least i will try
and after tat i ask my parents if i stood up to him
they will come stand by me and stand up against him too
and they said they will
though my dad like reluctant la cuz he thinks the kid must have been really naughty-.-''''''
but either way my mum and dad both had the urge to go up and stop him
but the dad stopped before they could do so
well good for him
cuz if i see himthe next time doing the same thing to the kid i would go up to him and stop him
at least i will try ppfftttt gosh okay tats all byebye!

2011-10-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

hello:D
i am still thinking if i shld go to the class outing tmr..
its not exactly an outing since we are going to the lecturer's house...
i cant decide
anyway been rotting at home like nobody's business
playing interior designing games since forever
got nothing done for the whole 2 days
was lazy to the extend tat i never go jogging..
tat is very bad.....i shall i must go jogging tmr
and i shall jog a longer distanvce
and dan i shall pack my tale which was my plan today...
okay dan tmr i shall also wash my shoes...so it will be whites by the time sch reopens
which i am looking forward to becuz i am so bored
and i am getting sick of computer games
i already grew tired of fb games
and the designing games are getting lesser and lesser
like i like this game call home sweet home
which is very fun and challenging at the same time
but dan hor its under big fish games
so means i download once dan cannot download the second time...
means once i finish playing for tat one hour i cant play anymore
which makes me very sad
becuz i cannot finish all the levels..:(
oh wells goodnite...

2011-10-08T01:26:00.000+08:00

hello:D its been days since i blog
but i got a good reason for it ok?
i was busy wid helping the class wid the flea market thing to raise funds
had to go to sch for like 2 days very early to me
like reach sch at 12
tues meet nicole earlier at 10 to help her bring her stuff to sch cuz she got work
good thing she went to sch wid me cuz the bag was heavy
donations from the whole family..
so we dragged around the mrt stations while we change trains..
it kinda look funny ppl were looking at us but its ok at least we aint dragging it alone
at least we got each other so its less embarrassing lo!
reach yck mrt at 10 plus and waited for shirley to come to help me bring to sch cuz nicole had to work
so i was left there standing waiting for her
seriously smrt shld fix some benched...in the station..
okay wait for so long and end up wanying came to the mrt station and we decided to carry the bag to class ourselves cuz shirley was caught in a traffic jam
so i had to carry nicole's bag to the class myself cuz wanying got loads of stuff too
i felt like a macho woman cuz i manage to carry it to the lecture hall before shirley came and help wid it
so in other words i am pretty strong! hahaha
okay so we went to class and started to help wid the packing and well they started to buy things from each other.. in the end we covered the cost coz aimin sold a holga camera to sadrina for 65
along wid another toy camera la..wad a good deal...
anyway so we packed and some sec 4 students came and they were suppose to walking around our sch
but since our class is their last stop, they were asked to help us:D
okay anywya went home at around like 5 plus
wed went to sch at 11 i was slightly late...reached at 11.06
HAHA met shirley and wanying for lunch
and and and i had the best milk tea from koufu!!!
okay its not the best but its freaking cheap
cheaper dan normal koufu price and its the same size!!!!
lala i love it to the max! cuz i think koufu's milk tea is not bad de lor!
okay dan went to class to help out in packing
i htink wed slacked more dan tues..
cuz most ppl came like after 5 or near the ending time..
so from 12 to 4 plus we slacked and talk lo
and watched video tat was freaking funny!
went home at around 6 plus?
for both days i was too tired to do anything else other dan watch tv eat and sleep
okay thursday i had no idea wad i was doing... but i woke up pretty late
i think my body clock is so screwed
and i have to tune it back within next week or i will be dead..
anyway today i woke up and decide to walk to tampines mall and library
to return book and to buy SUBWAY!!!!
hahah yeah it took me half an hour to walk to tampines mall....
beofre i got to get my subway!
dan from tampines mall i walk back home while drinking the peach soda!
went back home and warrior baek dong shui was showing!!
love tat show! its awesome max!
dan eat lunch~ dan next up was ghost whisperer back to back episode~
dan after i went to my bed
and waited for my strange addiction to show
but dan i fell asleep... which cause me to be unable to sleep now...damn
woke up and watch brilliant legacy
dan off the map dan love thy neighbour
its like tv marathon the whole day
was suppose to pack my table..
fine i shall pack it tmr i must do smt useful and not watch tv the whole day
need to go jogging too
somehow i feel damn unhealthy now..btu its okay tmr i shall jog and feel healthy again
sch is gonna start soon and i am looking forward to it
i want to be so caught up wid projects and revisions tat at the end of the day all i want to do is sleep:D
haha and to feel useful again!
tough sem it will be gonna do all i can to pull up my results...
okay so till here! goodbye!:D

2011-10-03T01:14:00.000+08:00

hello guys! sorry for not blogging
not much to anything really..
trying to salvage my laptop bag which obviously isnt a huge success
its in a state tat i dunno how to save it
and thus its pretty much left there like a loner on my table...
was suppose to pack my table
but i got to no where wid it also...
i did clean up a tiny little bit of it but nothing much..
my table still look messy...
this week will be a busy week
i hope i will have enuf sleep tats all..
gonna go grab subway sometime this week!!!
they have a lovely combinatoin!spicy italian!
LOL if i am rich i would eat subway twice just cuz the other sub is turkey and ham...
HAHA too bad i am not so i shall just eat the spicy italian one:D
so looking forward to it!!! whee~
okay tats all:D shall update some time son i hope!
so goodbye!

2011-09-30T14:00:00.000+08:00

lazy to blog so here is a video!
sorry for the craziness...

yeah~ tats pretty much! goodbye!

2011-09-28T01:15:00.000+08:00

hello!!!
today had a shopping spree first wid myself dan wid viven and pohyee:D
went to plaza sing first myself to get some materials for my laptop case tat i am gonna make..
and i went to spotlight in hope tat i will get some really nice cloth for this project..
and dan sadly.... the cloths are too ex and dan i left spotlight like a sad puppy...
went to daiso~ planned to get ribbons just for fun:D
but in the end...i got myself a whiteboard...AHAHA
so random right?
like of all things a white board..this is call IMPLUSE buy!!!
haha am trying to decorate it now~
gonna make my table nice nice so i will have motivation to study when sch reopens:D
hahah i must work like damn hard liao lor...
okay gonna make it so nice tat ppl will be jealous
its like the only place i can show off to ppl when they come...
hahah so must make them go WOW! LOL!
i am crazy now i dunno why oso
anyway i got like dry lips till it cracked...and it is annoying me right now...DISLIKE!
okay anyway it is rainging~ and i am conning myself to slp while it is cool like this!!!
oh okay so i must faster blog finish
after buying a all so random whiteboard from daiso i went to bugis to meet vivien
and for once i waited for her~:D
yeah dan we went to walk around first while waiting for pohyee:D
yay i waiting for ppl leh~ record breaking~
opkay so we walk to iluma and dan we window shop a little
viven bought yogurt and i bought nothing
dan went down iluma got chicken cutlet thing so we bought one and share cuz it freaking huge..
dan we went and dan i have to go withdraw money or i cant shop...
so when we make our way back to bugis junction..pohyee came!!
talk about good timing!
dan after tat we went to bugis street and started from the top level
and down got hungry at the second level and it was 3 plus near 4
so we went for lunch at yoshinoya..
seriously i think i eat either yoshinoya or subway everytime i go out wid the..HAHA
okay so after lunch we went back to bugis street again
and we left at 6.30
do u know? i did not manage to shop finish the whole of bugis street for the first time in my life!!!
oh and vivien bought a wig
which i can stop thinking of putting it on my head and see how i look in curls and blonde~
so i can decide if i shld do the real thing...okay maybe not blonde
but brown hair~hahahadan i was making so many jokes and fooling around so much at the props stall tat i was practically crazy..HAHAHA
anyway we manage to leave the shop widout me making a crazy scene~:D
oh dan at level two i found my cloth!!
and i could not decide which one to buy becuz they all look so nice and it is freaking cheap
like cheaper dan chinatown...so i bought it:D
i took a damn long time and was thinking of the colour combination
like the inside must match the outside
and dan i finally made up my mind and it was like 5plus near 6...
i shld learn to make up my mind faster...
anyway it was a good day for me becuz i bought no top no bottoms at all!!
which i dun intend to in the first place! save money! its not like i am desperate for clothes...
so it was okay for me to give it a miss:D
haha so i am a good girl today!!
and on the mrt back home 2 ladies were talking about my nails
secretly i think i did a damn good job!
like so many ppl tot is i paste it on one!!
but the thruth is i painted it myself
paint right hand wid left hand and it turned out well:D
imma gonna go pro now~
HAHAHA go pro like a boss!!!
okay dan went home and dan i realise i got no cushion for my project....
so was searching around the house and found half a ironing board cloth
which is cushioned la!!! so i stole it!!HAHA
kidding luh! i ask my mum she say i can take de!
so i took it but its too small so she say she gonna get a new ironing board cloth tmr
since she needs it:D
whee dan i can start on my project make a laptop case le!
haha so freaking happy! cant wait! okay i shall go slp now before the coolness runs out~
bye guys! will blog again later tonight:D nights!:D

2011-09-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

hello guys!!
today went bowling at ochid bowl at ehub:D
it was addictive!!!
at first i was like shit dunno how to play
wad if i fall on to the lane or drop the ball on my feet
or my hand break becuz its too heavy?
turns out to be it was great~
and though i did not fall into the lane nor did my sis
but got this boy boy who did
and another boy who swing his arm and the ball drop backwards....O.O
yeah it was fun!!!! addicted and the best part was..
my sis treat me becuz she wants to learn and so i was there to accompany her...but it was good~:D
and and i won!!!! it was a fair fight... cuz we both first time playing~
played four games:D wanted to stop at one but we cant bring ourselves to do so..
haha okay pictures:D

lane 15:D

my sis!

whoots!! won first game!!

dunno where is game two but i won game two too:D
game three score~ win again:D

game four my sis and i got the same score hahah but total i win:D yay!!! happy max!!
haha oh and i forgot to bring camera.. use phone again..
HAHA okay got to wake up at 10 tmr so goodnight!:D

2011-09-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

hello! today went to expo and bedok center to eat
everytime i go out wid mum and sis i will feel like a nobody
mainly becuz they will walk tgt and talk and dan i am like invisible till they me
like to queue up for food...
oh well went to expo and the isnt a lot of things
pretty expensive to me... so yeah did not but anything
went to bedok center to eat
and i am so glad i did not buy ramly burger for tea..
my dinner was so sinful...
show u guys pictures!
later~ HAHA
okay dan my sis say got this ice cream very nice went to try and i think tat coccogelo is still the best..
i am not being bias just speaking the truth.
yeah so i am still loyal to coccogelo
which means i am going back there soon to enjoy, indulge in tat awesome ice cream:D
yeah~ okay the ice cream shop is called
the ice cream gallery... its just ice cream not gelato..
maybe i more atas..HAHA gelato sounds more atas dun u think?
gelato is: different from some ice cream because it has a lower butterfat content. (healthier)
higher sugar content than ice cream (not so good afterall)
more intense in flavors due to the overrun
oh gosh i am craving for gelato already....
okay pictures..sorry for the quality..
i forgot to bring my camera....

lala omg this i f-ing delicious!!!!! i eat so so many of them!!!

satay..still okay ba

popiah this is nice!!!!

tofu? not tat nice..
oh and there is hokkien mee which obviously i was too busy eating the lala till i never take photo...HAHA
okay tat all for today! tmr going bowling~ byebye:D

2011-09-23T01:12:00.000+08:00

hello today i am talking addiction
becuz i am into this show call my strange addiction on foxcrime 503
at 11pm every monday:D
and its so cool
there was one addiction tat they showed tat relates to me well
which is .....sun tanning....
haha yeah i use to think being tan makes me look healthy
so i would go to the beach whenever possible
and i was very tan last time
it was so addictive to know tat ur skin is brown
it was to the state tat i got like sun burn almost everytime i go to the beach
which eventually resulted in me having older loking skin now on my forehead which looks like super ultra fine wrinkles....but i am now fighting it wid anti-oxident..
yeah so i srewed my skin up once and i dun plan to screw it up anymore
becuz i cannot afford to look old le..HAHA
yeah so i pretty much stop sun tanning and yeah i gone fairer..:(
which i am not proud of...but i do not put on sun block haha
okay so i was addicted to sun tanning
skin cancer also scares me and stop me from sun tanning
which means my addiction aint very strong yet
haha okay and dan i painted my nails leopard prints:D
i show u guys!! my sis tot is sticker eh!! means its good!!

chio rite?? i know~ okay till here~ wanted to do a tuitorial de
but dan hor i think i am not good enuf to teach ppl
plus my black nail polish is so dry..
so yup! someday i shall vlog:D
gonna make my own laptop bag... and yeah shall finish it before sch reopens..
okay till here byebye:D

2011-09-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

hello....
ytd was horrible...
the morning was horrible.....
thank god i got jiayi to help me feel better..
seriously...olvl i cried on her shoulders
this time i cried over the phone... msg....and twitter to her...
forever crying in front of her due to exams....
okay anyway i could not really on monday nite cuz results is at 8am
i woke up at 8 plus on tues
and went to on my com straight
as expected i did not do well
and i cried in fornt of the com like nobody's business...
good thing no one was at home
okay i cry and everytime i tried to stop i cried even more...
its like a leaking tap....
and i was putting the blame on someone whom i shld not becuz it was nobody's fault
except mine...if i did work harder and push all the tots away
i would have done better if i did work harder
nothing to dwell on anymore
when sch reopen i am gonna do super well for my projects
revise my work everyday
now i know..poly u cant slack either
anyway got myself perked up to meet jiayi
to cheer myself up..
we met at the usual place at 12...she was late and i am early like for once..
so i stood there and waited for her
my eyes were so puffy and it makes me feel like sleeping..
and to make matter worse the toy catching machine near me was playing songs on reapeat and made me feel even sleepier....haix...and the lack of slp..
it was raining too....
jiayi finally came drenched..HAHA could not help but to laugh at her misery...
okay dan we went to get subway and she went to eat at kopitiam at t1...
talked a lot a lot and it made me feel better
somehow she can always make me feel better
okay dan we went to pasir irs to ehub to buy movie ticket to watch johnny english
and while waiting for the show to start we decide to go in to the arcade
and dan we played jiayi's fav arcade game
which is slamming 3 buttons for a few games...
she is the pro luh okay and i was a noob..
cuz i dun go arcade the last time i step in to one was in sec3.... and it was to play air hockey
okay dan we played the rise of the dead.
under my request becuz i wanted to shoot things
so we played and i was screaming like mad
everytime the zombie jumps out and slash my character i will scream like mad
anyway my friends just like ask me how much i got for gpa and my mood now is like T.T
okay nvm forget it....okay so i was screaming like mad becuz the arcade is empty
so nobody can hear me.... and the fact tat i need to vent my fustrations
so i dun really give a damn if i am unglam
okay so i scream like mad like xiao zha bo...
poor jiayi she had to suffer becuz of my results..
anyway the toy catching machine was-.-
there was this toy which had its head stuck at the edge of the outbox....
and dan we spent 3 dollars trying to make it drop...
and dan the machine had to spoil....anyway it stoped us from spending more money on it..
okay so we almost spend finish all the money in the card
and it was time for movie....
it wasnt as funny as i tot it would be
it was more of -.- dan LMFAO
okay maybe my mood played a part in it tats why...
anyway after the movie my mood was back to :( again
cuz it was time to go home..and i had no idea how to face my mum
i think i am such a disappointment in the family..
was never as smart was never as good was never ever up to my sis standards...
tat is in terms of studies
i think if i was given a chance to run i would be the pride of the family...
or arts or smt..
just not studies i dun think i am born to study
but i guess those are excuses
if i make the effort to study i will do well
i already prove it once to myself so i shld stick to it..
i think being my friend is a very tough thing...
i think i only have like a hadnful of friends who really know me
and are patient enuf to go thru all my crap
i shld be thankful...and stop making my friends leave me..
okay never...sorry aint a magic word anymore...
anyway i think my hair look better dan my face...proof???

see my hair falls perfectly into place...i show u more..

fyi bang wall is me.. look at my hair.. it just falls down like tat..
okay i shld stop showing photos and claim tat my hair is good..LOL
till here byebye~ tmr i shall do on addictions:D bye~

2011-09-20T01:15:00.000+08:00

hello!!!!
i am skype-ing wid my class ppl now and its freaking funny
becuz we are talking crap when we are suppose to be dicussing about some class thing...
okay so today i did nothing much
as usual...HAHAHA okay not looking forward to results....
-.-so not looking forward to it...how??
its in 7 hours and 15 mins time...T.T
i just want to move on to next sem...
and not redo one sem T.T
so freaking nervous...
okay i shall go off byebye!!

2011-09-19T14:03:00.000+08:00

hello! sorry for not blogging the past few days i was so tired....
okay so saturday i went for the heart foundation thing...
i woke up so early adn its a saturday..
and i tot i was late and dan i have to make everyone wait..
in the end...they make us wait for an hour or so...-.-
i could have slept like and hour more okay...
anyway was group wid nicole and nicholas and two other ppl from rp and sp
and dan we sert off to do the health mapping exercise
i have to admit it was my first time stepping into one room flats
and i think it aint so bad luh if its just one person living in there
there were many old folks living there and i am true amazed at how they were able to keep their house clean
mmm yes i hope i can still clean my own house next time when i grow as old as them...
okay after the whole thing... i realise i need to learn my languages...
it sux!!!!! hahah dan i now think tat i wun mind working wid elderly:D
yes there was this grandpa whom i wanted to talk wid so much becuz he went thru ww2 before
i wanted to hear his story but i have to keep to my job for tat day so i could notT.T
i always love listening to the stories of ww2 from ppl who went thru it..
oh well i guess there is always next time...
anywya i dun min ddoing it again becuz it was meaningful even though it is tiring cuz i did not have enuf sleep
and it was quite enjoyable to do this
being able to get on the ground to help these ppl and get to interact wid them:D
okay dan ytd went to ion to get nadiah her bdae present before going to her chalet...
it was hard!!! we spent like one hour in diva just to decide wad to buy
and to also work within the budget...
okay so we finally got like two earings and a polishing cloth
dan we went to diaso to get a nice heart shape box and paper cushion to make everything look nice:D
went to pasir ris and got into the wrong chalet...HAHAHA paid one buck for nothing...
okay so went there sit down for awhile dan went walk walk dan went home
mmm tmr is the results..and i so do not look forward to it
becuz i am afraid tat i never do well...
haix its all marked now
so there is nothing i can do
so till here byebye:D

2011-09-17T01:06:00.000+08:00

hello:D
i am so dead tmr gotta wake up at 6.30 tmr and i am not in my bed yet
bascially becuz i took a super long nap at a super wrong time
so i woke up at 7 pm..
cannot blame me luh
today was suppose to go de dan rite i set alarm 9.30 wake up
and dan my friend msg me and woke me up
say she cant go out liao
dan i want to go back to slp but i cant
dan my sis msg me say i cant slp till her courier comes..
so i cant take my beauty slp till it arrive
so i had to wait and wait till like 3plus?
dan i can finally go take my nap becuz it arrive...
dan just as i was about to slp the phone rang..
so i go pick up stupid prank call-.- punch the caller's face..
so i tried to fall asleep and i manage to do so
i guess i am really tired... and dan i woke up at 7!!!
i cannot slp liao..
anyway i am currently addicted to superman by joe brooks becuz his voice is nice and he plays the guitar
hahaha just this thing for singers now...haha
okay i shall go slp now
after i listen to his song for the 123456789 times today...HAHA
GOODNIGHT~~~

2011-09-16T00:51:00.000+08:00

hello guys~ and gals~
today was okay....
i did pretty much nothing again...
i went to the library out of boredom...
and i borrowed two books!!!!
one is pinocchio:D yes i am kiddie~ but hor i got to say the book is very nice
aiya its not from the children section luh okay!
its from the adult section so its more chim
but either way it is still a very nice book
so touching eh i tell u!!!!!
and the other book is about this girl who work her way up from scratch or smt...
aiya going shopping again tmr so i shld go slp le~ nites~:D

2011-09-15T01:00:00.000+08:00

hello:D
today i saw a shooting star!!!
at first i tot it was a plane..
but dan it was too white too bright to be a plane
so i stood in the middle of the road wid my mum
starring into the sky trying to figure out if it is a plane or not
dan it occur to me tat it is a shooting star!!!
so i hurry up made a wish~
okay i was greedy i made two...
cuz i know the first one is stupid
the second one is smt tat i really need it to happen
anyway my hand was too full to properly cross my fingers over each other
but i still hope it will work
anyway my mum and i stood in the midle of the road and watch the shooting star fall
till it is gone~okay we look like retard
i did pretty much nothing to day
but i did exercise by jumping rope 1000 times
not much effect man i dun feel the tension in my leg muscles..
which is smt i dun like
i like the tight feeling that i get when i run tats why i run
it makes me feel healthy~ okay anyway my mum gave me a 10 bucks pp voucher~
which means i can go cotton on to shop tmr~
hahahahahaa cotton on shopping i wonder wad i can get there tmr~ so see u guys~ byebye:D

2011-09-14T01:06:00.000+08:00

yay~~~ i think the photo shows it all~
yes i went to watch GLEE 3D!!!! i love kurt ttm!!!!! hahah
today i went out wid vivien~
went to catch glee~ and shop and eat subway~
i am gonna have subway next week again cuz got the coupon~
yes i am tat cheapskate:D
yes so yummy!! long time no eat le!!
dan we went walk walk
and i cant deicde on which shorts to buy again!!
so typical of me to run to and fro between shop just to decide which one is nicer
end up i got myself a black shorts becuz apparently i got no black shorts...
yes i got no black shorts...HAHAAH so i got one pair of it
but i really like the acid wash one
so i shall go back and get it on friday when i go shopping at bugis:D
yes dan i will have enuf shorts to go wid my tops:D
before wid head to the cinema we went pass rubi!!
its new in tampines and i am so freaking happy becuz it is finally there!!!
yes!!! happy max!! now i cant wait for my gmarket top to arrive!!dan i really happy liao~
sch open got loads of new clothes to wear:D
okay i got side tracked... anyway i went into rubi and saw the shoe tat i eye for freaking long on SALE!!!
tat is like a freaking good news to me can?????
i am forever waiting for cotton on to be on sale before i buy anything from there HAHA
talk about being budget~ teehee~
so we went to the movie first!!!
and i think it was awesome!! becuz they can sing
and tat kurt is so cute~ahahahaha as usual~ he is my fav in the show~
okay so after movies i decided to go back and get the rubi shoe:D
and dan once again i was caught between buying the black one or the grey one...
hahah poor vivien.....ahaha dan i decided to get the grey one
becuz the black one is too big and too small
dun have my size luh ok...
so got the grey anyway when i first saw it it was the grey one tat i like...so yeah~
oh and dan i tried my luck and ask elaine to get it for me and she agreed~
muhahahahah tats like the best thing one earth!!!
first its the sale next is someone buying for u!!!!! ahaha and i literally went mad~haha
okay so after tat went to the sky garden to check viven's camera apps out~
and now she got me addicted to it... HAHAHA okay spam picture~

my eyes are pretty much gone in the photos eh??HAHA

bimbo pic~:D

okay i admit i was trying to act like a bimbo wid the ribbon~

neoprint app first try~

another app~

i swear it was suppose to be a peace sign....

me trying to decide which colour to buy...vivien caught me off guard...
okay dan of cuz the ultimate bimbotic photo~
more like crazy childish photo:P
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first of all i would like to say the mall was empty!!
second i cant believe i can squeeze in the thing!!
third i was laughing like a boss when i was cramming myself inside
before the photo was taken...HAHAHA
okay enuf of the crazy-ness~ byebye:D

2011-09-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

hello everybody:D
i am trying to fall asleep
becuz i stupidly forgot tat tmr i have to wake up at 7 to go amk for spca flag day...
ya so i took at nap at freaking 6 plus and woke up at 7 plus
which mean i cant sleep now becuz i am too awake...
i have no idea how in the world i am gonna wake up tmr and get myself to amk
though i have ot admit tat i love flag day
i love doing flag day its a kind of satisfaction i get:D
yes so i am looking forward to tmr~ which is actually today at 9
took the whole day shift from 9 -5 basically becuz i got nothing better to do at home
other dan watching tv and playing computer games
so instead of rotting at home and geting scolded by my sis
i would rather do smt i like and meaningful like flag day~
its like 8 hours of fund raising and i hope i can raise a lot of money for spca
simply becuz animals have feelings too and when they need help we shld help
becuz when we need help they help us
like blind ppl need dogs to guide them
therapy animals
rats being use in labortory for scientific purposes etc..
so the least we can do is to give back to them
by helping spca to raise fund to help those poor abandon animals
yes!!! and animals are just plain cute so we shld do smt to help them
afterall they are living things they can think and they have feelings~ just like us:D
aiya i can like write tons of things on animals becuz i love them
but i shall not do so becuz i need to get myself to be sleepy and go to bed...
today i did nothing at home
but stick the earring pieces and rings tgt for the flee on sunday
there are only like 15 pieces of them becuz i am not really sure if my sis allow me to sell them...
plus..... i got no money to buy the things i need to make them
so wid low budget comes little quantity hahah hope to earn a little more
to buy more things to make for the next flee
which is i dunno when.... but oh well better to be prepared dan not right?
haha okay so was listening to music on youtube and found this guy call joe brooks
hahah he can sing!!! and i love doggies:D
ahahahah okay gotta chill or cannot slp liao
and my sis just scare me by telling me the flee is tmr...
gosh i shld get all my plans laid out hahah okay i shall stop here~ good night~

2011-09-09T00:46:00.000+08:00

hello!!!
ahahaha this was taken at spotlight~ so funny right???
i think it is damn funny luh~like super big smile~
my friend say its so like me!!!! AHAHA too bad my mouth cant open tat big!!!!:P haha so insane~
i got so many things to do tmr!!!
1. do the earings and rings for the flee..
2.pack my table it is so freaking messy
3. repaint my nails.
okay and dan i thnk the packing of table part is gonna be a challenge
becuz i hardly ever manage to pack finsih my wardrobe or tanle in a day
cuz i lke to dilly dally~ haha dan see smt old tat i forgot
i will muse over it for a long time....
and dna painting my nails is gonna be tough too!!!
cuz painting designs ar..dan need to slowly slowly do...
the earrings and rings would be pretty fast
not many luh so can finish like fast half hour can liao
so i have to speed pack and speed paint!
haiyo today i went to h&m again
no it isnt my new fav shop i only went there to help my sis get her shoe
but unfortunately dun have her size liao
so i went to queue to enter for nothing....ppfftt
dan went to robinson wid mummy she bought nothing
dan went to chinatown to get my earrings stuff which is so freaking cheap!!!
yes i hope i earn loads of money triple of wad i spend ? yup!
try to sell some of my old tees oso ba!
like for 2 bucks? cuz they are common tee
i hardly wear them though...
i am so not lookin gforward to my results....
i think i did badly wid so many things going on during tat period
it was impossible for me to concentrate....
haix...if i have to retake another year i swear my sis and parents will kill me
i would probably kill myself too...i promise tat i will do well for poly...
i guess i would just have to work super hard the next sem
afterall i aint gonna go for cca anymore means i got more time to revise my work
and i will do so cuz i dun want to disappoint myself
study for myself not for my family... hate breaking promises
so i shall not break the promise i made to myself
okay so i shall jiayou and hope for the best
shall not give myself anymore excuse to not do well anymore
i need to make it into nus to prove myself and to prove to others
tat i am just as smart as my sis and can be even better dan them
mmm yes! its been a long time since i motivate myself like this
hahah okayh kinda sleepy already! shall go slp now
and wake up early tmr to carry out my plans!
so goodnight and byebye:D

2011-09-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

hey guys!!!
i am too lazy to post pics again becuz i am sitting too comfortably~hahah
i am a pig!!! any way today i not feeling well so i did not go out to help my sis go h&m to get her shoes
neither did i went out to get the stuff to make the rings and earings tat i will be selling...
so i pretty much rotted my whole day away..
i spend a lot of time sleeping though...seriously
and i need to start exercising already
back to my weekly jogs and sit ups and stuff
time to get myself back in shape
and stop spending so much money.
aiyo dunno wad to blog about le....yay okay five facts about me:
1. i am afraid when ppl tell me tat i will be the only person tat they will ever like/love in their life...unless is my husband...i dun even want to hear from bf can...hahah
2. i am afraid when ppl promise God things related to me
3. i think mrt looks like caterpilla
4. i think toes are digusting looking
5. i am afraid of being alone super times a million afraid of being alone
the first two are fears tat only existed after olvl cuz of an event
and i hope they can go away like just go away
point 5 i hate to go home alone eat alone
even when i am sad i went to be alone in the sense tat someone is beside me but keep quiet
i really just hate being lonely and i think ignoring me is the best way to torture me
oh and i hate the fact tat someone can replace my place between my good friend
and my good friend seems to be so happy off wid him/her
while i stand one side looking at them hearing them laugh and enjoying myself
i hate it when i am being replace and tat person is not affected at all
i hate it when it happens becuz it feels like i am being cheated on
and tat it was all fake... tat i was just a temporary person to him/her
gosh and its happening right now..oh gtg byebye

2011-09-07T00:31:00.000+08:00

hello guys and gals~
i am pretty tired rite now from the whole day of activities...
which is actually just shopping and watching movie
woke up at 10 today but went back to sleep till like 15 min later...as usual i can never wake up on time...-.-
okay so after much rushing in beautifying myself (HAHA)
i manage to reach the station 5 min late to meet my friend:P (vivien)
eh not bad liao hor 5 min nia!!!! it use to be 30 min!!!!! HAHAH
okay so we set off to somerset mrt station to meet another friend (pohyee)
and we were early!!!!!! muhahahah by like 5 min or so?
so we went to walk walk and went into new look
and dan i saw the freaking pair of shoe tat i want and its on a freaking sale!!!
and dan i was all so hyper about it becuz it finally have my usual size (size 8)
and dan i happily took it and try it on and guess wad?
it does not bloodily fit....(punch their face)
the usual price was 23.90 and the sale it beczme 9.90....*pulls out hair*
gosh how can they do this to me??? huh? why why why?
why are things always either too big or too ex or exceptional cases too small?
why cant they just make smt that fits me??? pppfffttt!!!
okay so pohyee came and we set off to h&m
and obviously we have no idea where it was
we only know tat it was near somerset...
so we walk out of 313 after much distractions...cuz of me....
ya i cannot keep my focus on h&m only...
i wonder off to cotton on and alomst went into forever 21...hahh:P
okay so we made the wrong turn and dan we had to walk back
and dan we walk the opposite direction and found h&m!!! whee!!
and u dun have to queue up to get in
though it is pretty crowded inside...so we walk from the top to the bottom and manage to get some stuff
vivien got a ring, pohyee got ear rings and i got a pair off BLACK flats!!
smt basic for the first time... haha and i got a ring from there too...
yeah dan we queue like wad 15min or so?
we refuse to get any clothes cuz the dressing room queue was so freaking long
and we had not eat lunch yet!!! so we skip the clothes~
okay dan we went to eat at yoshinoya and dna we went to shop at forever 21 and uni quo:D
dan we walk to plaza sing and of course we went there for daiso<3
and dan we spend a great amount of time there simply becuz there are so much things!
much cuz its uncountable!!!! and they are all freaking 2 bucks!!!
so i got some stuff for the earings i plan to make for the sunday flee
and a can of old sch candy~ oh love it to the max!
okay dan we went to spot light just for fun!
and it was really fun becuz we went crazy in there good thing there aint alot of ppl~
okay dan i went to search for the minion toy tat my sis want
dan off we went go home~
nah but i met up wid both my sis to eat dinner and watch smurf!
which was really good becuz its so cute!!!!
la la la la la la la la la la la~
hahahhahaha its not annoying!!!! okay i think its so freaking cute to the max!!
okay so after the show end my second sis and i walk home from e-hub...
which is pretty okay less dan 30 min~
my da jie went to tm to get dinner cuz she did not manage to eat dinner before the movie
oh and i saw khai at e-hub...hahahha shock max! but singapore so small luh...
okay so tmr i am going out again just to help my sis get her shoe from h&m
and i think i am going to die becuz the queue for payment is gonna be freaking long...
major dislike and i am going alone tmr.... freak!!!
okay nvm i will survive....
okay i on a serious note
i have done everything i can to tell u tat i have forgiven u
i dunno wad to do anymore.. given u the chance to say wad u want wad i want
i let u apologise to me and i accepted it
i gave u a hug look at u long enuf
i dunno wad else i need to do to make u believe me
anyway i hope i do not screw up my exams becuz if i do
i will be in deep shit
and all becuz of stupid things tat i cant tell my parents about
haix life goes on and i shall enjoy every moment till the result day..
bye guys! will upload the photos tmr
i am too tired to grab my camers and upload things! byebye~

2011-09-05T22:37:00.001+08:00

hey guys!
i am back in singapore~
shopping at malaysia was fruitful~whee~
went to 3 shopping malls in a day shop like mad and spent less dan 50 bucks sing!!!
i bought a lot of stuff leh~ and i am damn happy!!
tired but happy~the only thing tat made me sad was high waisted shop...T.T
its either too ex or too big....gah smack the living hell out of them...
hahah other dan tat i oso failed to buy a nice bag
or a nice shoe... serious four pairs of shoe died on me....
and now i got so many tops....
i got no bottom or shoe to go wid... gosh smack them alive!!!
but other dan tat i think i got some really good deal~ so yeah~ i am happy:D
okay i want to slp le!! tmr i am going h&m
and watch smurf~ muhahahahhahahaha okay~ byebye~

2011-09-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

oh hello there~
LOL okay so i survived the war!!!
hahahyes i survived the it fair.. it was terrible!!!!!!
so damn freaking crowded!!!! i can faint!!!
on my way there, got this auntie who started applying medicated oil, someone keeps farting non-stop and the guy standing me smell like fish market.... in other words i literally fainted on my way to the it fair
hahahah yes so i manage to get to suntec safe and sound
and dan off i went wid my dad to hunt ofr my camera and his printer
i am so upset!! okay the camera i wanted no more liao!!!! *faints*
so we had to walk around to look at more cameras
haiyo all damn freaking expensive!!! is like if i buy all my hard save money fly till dunno where!!!
okay so i was about to give up when i saw fujiflim camera
ya i know fujiflim camera not very good but hor u must listen first okay LISTEN!!!
-it is 16 megapix
-full HD
-wide lens thingy
-super light
aiya u get me la! oh and its red! i always tot red camera are pretty:D
nah did not get some dslr simply becuz it is huge and heavy!
hahah compact cameras are enough for me
small and handy and can take pics 16 megapix eh
can compare wid dslr liao can??? and cheaper somemore!
just tat it cant zoom tat much only! and look less pro? hahaha
and i always think tat got dslr but dunno the functions well is like acting pro yeah
hahaha okay la i am like insulting ppl wid dslr... sorry!

so this is how my camera looks like:D
chio anot chio anot?
chio la i know rite!!!cant wait to use it like soon!!!
and there are so many events to go this few weeks!!! good chance to use it~ hahah
okay i shall go slp now
have to wake up 5 tmr morning just to go malaysia... ppfftt....
like going for another war! well hope it will be worth it~
gonna shop like mad~ whee~ so goodnight ppl~ byebye:D
no pic of meself cuz i spam alot ytd liao~ bye~

2011-09-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

wanted to put this as fb dp but small small cannot see the nice-nest so put on blog:D
i am so vain~ whoohoo~ dun jealous ar~i think this photo is nice:D
see jie! my face aint tat flat!:P BLEAH!
hello!!!!! i went shopping today~
and i spent ZERO dollars!!!!
first i wanted to buy a bag... and dan i could not decide
so i waited for my mum to meet me up at tm..
and dan she said u go malaysia dan u see la if there cheaper and nicer dan u buy from malaysia
if not come back u can still buy! ok so i moved on
dan i wanted to buy a basic black flats cuz apparently i own NONE! hahah
and dan i showed her all the potential one and she said the sole not good too expensive
and i was like o.O how cheap u want???
saw this darn pretty one and the quality is good but she say too ex.... haiyo dan wad u want me to wear?
walk bare foot ar? i think shopping trip to malaysia is getting into her....
oh well.... so i showed her the fake toms shoe and she was like huh?! the real one 49???
and i was like ya.... u look at the fake one so lousy
which is true cuz the sole is really tat type u walk three times dan tats it type...
so yeah..... in the end i bought nothing cotton on dun even have anything i like....
did not go to parkway one though i am too lazy to do so
okay and i was a good girl today!!! i packed my wardrobe... still packing!!!
i just need like 3 hangers more.. but apparently my house got no more hangers!!!
so i got to dump the rest on my bed and sleep on them tonight...
haha joking la! i shall fold them up nicely and put it a side till i manage to find 3 more hangers!
ya so wads packing widout a little music?
played songs through my laptop and got very very distracted!!!
is like pack half an hour play half an hour
haha good thing the hanger went out and i was hungry!
okay so i took some photos while packing too!!
packing stuff can be boring too okay!!!!
i took the ten smiley shots:D and here we go~

aiya and i secretly took the chance to show off my nails can!!! hahah
the first pic looks like i am pointing middle finger .... but no it isnt its my index finger!!!
hahah i shall stop being so vulgar gesture wise!!! must not be vulgar anymore!
okay project non-vulgar!!!
damn went to poly and i became vulgar gesture wise...gosh....
okay getting comfortable wid vulgar gesture is not equals to showing them
hahaha okay okay i shall stop showing vulgar signs and be a good girl girl:D
oh and i have decided tat i shall find blogshop modelling job:D
yay!!! so to blogshop owners out there!!!
i am 1.69m tall us size 2 haha or size 4
no experience! but hor got model company want me :D
haha okay i am selling myself..but i desperate for money and clothes!!!
yes! and dan tmr i am going to the it show wid my dad
oh we are going for another war....
its the usual routine.... he will tell me where to start look out for wad and stuff..
but seriously... it goes in one ear come out from the other~ hahahah
i am just gonna focus on getting my camera!!! oh so excited!!!!
yay!!! i am already happy just by thinkin gabout getting a camera!
imagine when i get it tmr!!!! wa smile from ear to ear ar!!!
i am listening to hakuna matata again!!!
hsahahaha i think i am playing fb games like nobody's business!
hahahahahah oh and dan i am gonna skip the training~ on monday for shopping
yes i am an idiot!!! but i am shopping deprived due to exams
and since many things had happen and some are still going on
i think its okay for me to skip the training and go shopping
get some serious new high waisted shorts and tee and shoes and bags
gosh seriously my shoes are giving up on me.. one by one they spoil!!!!
i am a sad kid!!! and those tat spoil are the ones i like!
sad sad kid! but nvm i shall make the trip to malaysia a fruitful one!
mum gonna give me a hundred bucks! whee~
get ready for some serious shopping!
oh and when i get my new camrea fb is gonna die~ hahahah okay till here ba!
shall go sleep! and get ready for tmr 'war'! goodnight!

2011-09-02T01:53:00.000+08:00

okay hahah i shall put this photo cuz i think i am amazing!!!
lol no la is cuz i tie the hair bow wid my hair and it is still on
and i am very proud of it:D
okay hello guys! gals!
today i did nothing but sit in front of the tv!!!! and computer now hahah
oh and dan i am not going malaysia tmr but on sat instead!!! hahahah
oh and dan go it fair on sun wid dad!!!
gonna get a camera!!! my own camera!!! omfg!!! finally!!!! whee~
dan i can take photos and bring the camera everywhere!! and camwhore like shit!!:D:D
hahahaha yay!! so excited!!! lalalalala~ eh i miss on the fringe!!!!
my hair grow so slowly....gosh.....
okay i got pretty much nothing to blog about liao~ byebye!!! hahaha

2011-08-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

hello!
went shopping wid the girls today at orchard!
tot i can upgrade from bugis street to orchard and i was wrong!
even far east is so ex...T.T
okay so everything i saw at far east to me was not worth the price la ok.. i keep thinking tat bugis cheaper
and gmarket even cheaper still.....
anyway i manage to buy a dress from forever 21! for 17 bucks
not some fancy dress though....
its just a bandage dress with african print if tats wad u call it....
yeah i dun think its worth the price...
anyway we went shoe crazy and i swear there are many pretty heels tat i want!!!
oh there is just one heel i want! tat one pair and i will be happy enuf!
its from the little things she needs!!!! it a pair of black heels wid a ribbon strap in the middle tat can be put behind or in front! aiya ask lynette or charmaine luh! but its damn chio luh! and i dun want to take it off!!!
size 38! for whoever is kind enuf to buy for me as my very late bdae present or very early christmas present!
i am trying to find the photo of it but apparently it is some off season heels....
but wad could go wrong wid a pair of black heels wid ribbon rite?? rite! so yes! kind souls out there!!!
lalala okay i am toatlly in love wid the heels!!! cuz it is freaking pretty!!!!
okay so yeah i need to buy a fake leather jacket to go wid my new dress....
my mum say must wear jacket... apparently it is too hot for me to wear without one..
oh well...the dress is nice!
okay so tmr i am going soul garden to eat like a pig!
hhhhmmm hope there wun be alot of ppl...
gonna skip breakfast! so can eat more!!!!!!!!! and dan can go shop a little:D
or maybe just stay at home and rot like a boss!
hahah so much for teachers' day......oh wells~
i shall go catch some slp soon! so goodnight!
~~trust me if u come and talk to me i will talk to u becuz i dun believe it is my fault tat this started but i dun want it to end this way i will be nice and not bite promise~~

2011-08-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

ah so chio! LOL i am so bhb!!!
hey guys!!!!
actually there was no reason to block my blog cause i did not write down too emo
hahah actually not much emo stuff
cuz sometimes we just have to learn how to face the world bravely:D
its the ups and downs tat make life wonderful or sometimes tormenting
but tats life wad dun kill u makes u stronger rite? yes:D haha self reply:D
hhhmm so yes did not go to the zoo today becuz my sis and i slept till like 12 plus
and by the time we reach the zoo it would be a pretty waste of money le...so nvm!
kinda expected it anyway~
ok so my da jie just came back from sweden! and yay she bought me stuff!!!
two things to be exact! a top and i jacket! another blue jacket to add to my already very blue jacket collection hahah the only thing about it is tat it is kinda colourful!
though the base is blue...hahaha i have no idea how come i got so many blue jackets...
yeah tmr gonna go shopping wid lynette and charmaine!
whee~ so looking forward to it cuz i need to shop badly!
friday going back malaysia to shop! and watch movie wid my cousins:D
hahaha its funny when i go back... they always ask me if i got bf liao
hahah and i always disappoint them:D yay single for more dan 17 years!
hahaha and dan we go very crazy! tat is if they do not sit in front of the com the whole day
hahah yes i shall go buy more high waisted shorts
becuz i found a shop at malaysia tat sells high waisted shorts way cheaper dan singapore and u can try
U CAN TRY!!!! means it will fit for sure!!!! muhahahhaahha
plan to get some coloured leggings though to go wid high waisted shorts:D
mmm i need to get more tops too oh and stupid axn machine spoil dan i cant pay for my top
tat i bought from gmarket...T.T hope them dun cancel my order......
yes! and tmr i shall concentrate on buying tops only!! since i going malaysia to buy bottoms! oh
and i am looking for a new bag too!!!! muhahahahaahah a nice bag to bring to sch
not a bag pack though need style liao!!! gotta pack my wardrobe too!!!! ahahahha
okay shall wake up at 10 tmr! meeting them at 12 whee~ cant wait~
so good night! and perhaps i will spam photos tmr !!! byebye:D

2011-08-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

hello! i am back to blog about my sleepover at lynette's
yeah i was talking about the brownie...
yeah so in the end we roll them into little brownie balls and covered them wid sprinkles and icing sugar
and after much rolling we realise it started to melt...
so lynette's mum suggest tat we put it in the fridge and dan she go get ice cream
to make smt out of it
well in the end it turn out to be freaking nice
i gotta thank lynette's mum for running around to save the brownies..
it was my mistake i shld have cleared it myself though
but anyway many thanks auntie!
yeah and the party started
and yeah the class went wild
i was pretty dead by dan due to the lack of slp
but jocelyn's and jim's kid were so cute!
so hyper sia! i keep laughing at them at how cute they were
it was priceless!
yeah throughout the party i ate only the potato salad and the chicken tat lynette's parents made
the chicken is freaking nice i tell u!!!!!
yeah okay so after tat there were quite a lot of leftovers so yeah we dao pao some back
and yes i took the salad home
hahah cuz got cherry tomato lo~ hahahah eh damn nice okay!
yeah and we headed home and i was very much dead
the next day my parents told me i cant go for anymore sleepovers yeah how nice..
okay so screw it la okay screw it
so tats pretty much it for the sleepover
tmr my sis want to go to the zoo
but i doubt she will as usually talk only...
haix today on the fringe had a fan meet
i did not go cuz i knew it would be freaking crowded and tat i wun stand a chance to take photo wid ian
so i did not go had a few friends who went there and tell me they saw ian and stuff
which was totally not helping me in comforting myself for not going
they are just making me jealous tats all....damn
never next fan meet wid ian only dan i go like tat stand more chance to take photo wid him
hahaha yes i am crazy i know my sis said so too...
have yet to pay for the top i bought from gmarket.... gosh.. got to go pay it tmr...
okay till here byebye!

2011-08-28T02:23:00.000+08:00

hey guys!!!!
its is 1.34 and i am sure half the singaporeans i cursing and swearing becuz
hahaahaha RECOUNT!!!! hahahahah
aiya they shld just leave it till tmr la.....
so late liao
later the more they count the more mistakes they make...even worse rite?
hahahah anyway i recovered from my lack of slp due to the sleepover..
yes i slept less dan 3 hours!! so proud of myself!!!!!!!!!!
i only slept for 8 hours okay before the sleepover and i manage to stay up for so long!!!
freaking proud of myself!!!
okay so after socio we went to novea untied square to be exact to buy stuff for baking
and yeah found out tat u CANNOT BRING a bunch of swa girls to buy groceries...
becuz we spend $98.80 on snacks and baking stuff
which i think 3/4 of the things are snacks!!!!
so much for impluse buying!! hahahhaahhaha
yeah dan we went to lynette's house to bake!!!
yeah it took quite long cuz yeah a whole group of us were in the kitchen so yeah not bad liao
finish baking and some had to leave while the other like me who can sleepover
turned the tv on and started to watch titanic!!!
muhahahaha i never cry eh!!
instead i was damn into how fake the whole thing look now..
like the sky and stuff and yeah laughing at funny parts which i never realise before!!!
ah yes.. dan after tat we attempt to watch meet the parents
but failed so we switched to g-force!
ah dan we went to grab more snacks!
had ice milo and instant noodles!
yeah dan when we finish watching it it was like 4 plus going 5
dan started to camwhore!!! LOL like wad else man wad else?
yeah dan after camwhoring we started to get into mood to slp
oh and charmaine stole the sleeping bag i chop...T.T
cold eh cold.... so i crash wid them on the floor instead of the sofa... hahaha
okay so i only manage to like slp at 7 plus plus
oh it was much of a sleep though.. drift in dirft out
hahahah yeah was pretty dead during the party
oh and my brownies failed terribly
failed for the first freaking time and i was bloody sad
yeah but lyneete's mum was very nice tried to save it for me by having loads of crazy ideas!!!
yeah and the rest help in saving it too
which was very sweet of them becuz i already gave up on the brownies but they perserved on
see thats wad friends are for!!!
okay i am too lazy to continue blogging so i shall stop here...
and continue tmr so byebye

2011-08-24T15:02:00.000+08:00

hey guys!
today i am all energised to study again!!!
actually i am eating and blogging at the same time... to save time and to control myself
from using for too long la....
hahah anyway ytd i cried my heart out
it was good cried for so long for so long...
it has been a long time since i cried for so long in fact i htink the last time i cried was last year nov 19
how i know it so well? smt happen la duh-.-
hahah yeah and since dan i stop crying over things le
tot tat whole inccident would make me stronger
okay maybe in april i cried again but it was a small one
but no i am still the old horkuan
hard on the outside soft like mad on the inside
ytd i had a friend who told me tat i really have to go find someone who can help me
who encouraged me to go talk to somebody who can help me
becuz i lost myself already..confuse by my own tots lost in the whole event
overly stress by trying to not hurt anyone trying to focus on my studies trying to make sure everyone is happy but me
so yes i finally called someone for help after much persuasion
and it wasnt easy for me to make tat call but i knew i had to
once i started talking i just cried like nobody's business
to be honest i think my friend just saw the most unglam side of me
but its okay to cry to let down ur guard to be in touch of ur own emotions its the sign tat u are alive
after the call i realise wad the person said was true
i was trying to play god trying to make things go my way
to make things good and no one else would be hurt
and the person was right i am in no position to help anyone
because i was at the stage of breaking down myself
yeah i just needed someone to tell me tat straight in my face
tat i am caring too much of how other ppl feel and ignoring my own emotions
i was not in the position to do so
i know wad the aswer was deep inside me
i just did not show it cause i was afraid to hurt
afraid tat things would go wrong
basically i was living in self denial
i really tot i could handle it
yes the person was rite to say tat it was hard to handle smt like this
and tat the more i try to help someone out the more hurt i would bring to both of us
yes we learn things in class to learn and to apply
not just nod our heads and to memorise
but to understand and use it in our own life
how do u help others when u cant help urself?
i have sort out all my tots now in a calm state.
i was glad tat i make tat one call i was glad i let someone talk me into calling i am glad i too realise i could not handle it anymore
i am glad tat i cried it out i am glad tat i sort out my own tots
so yes i am all better now!
though smt still haunt me at night
but i think its smt i have to deal wid
tmr i am gonna stay over at my friends house
i am so glad tat my parents let me sleepover
becuz i can stop acting happy in front of them for one night
and truely let myself go tmr nite
its oso my last paper tmr so all things come at the right time
and dan after tat i will return back to normal
mmm at first i was still having second tots about going to the sleepover
but dan after the call i decided tat i shld go
mmm so much being said
i am gonna let myself loose tmr turn crazy at nite
and throughly enjoy myself wid no worries
and to u it wasnt really ur fault i was just living in self denial
yes and i want to say for all those who know wads happening to me for the past few days
and ppl who went thru it wid me help me in some ways
i am really okay and i thank you guys from the bottom of my heart
widout u guys i think i will still be stuck in my own confusion
and maybe collapse before exam end...
and thank you to the person tat i call
thank you for hitting the nail on its head
thank you for bring me out from my own denial thank you:D

2011-08-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

those it look fake?
my smile??? mmmmm i think it does..
oh wells.. hhhmmm yeah i think rite when u go through hardship
and ppl are there for u
those are the ones who u can keep
and those who u immediately think of when u are going through smt tough
hahaha yes i have learn some stuff
mmm yes its call life experience!!!
next time can counsel ppl liao~
at least i can understand how they are feeling:D
okay shall go slp le! nites!

2011-08-21T01:31:00.000+08:00

okay it wasnt as easy as i tot it would be
it didnt turn out as bad as i tot it would be
but i hope it isnt just a show tat u put in front of me
overall i think i shld have just told u tat day
either way i still feel bad....
u anticipated it but i know it will still hurt u in a way or another
but isnt it better for me to tell u the truth dan to lie to u?
its better for the both of us tats wad i think
i am sorry and i really dunno wad else to say but sorry....
okay one word six letters... guilty
feeling guilty of not telling u earlier
feeling guilty for thinking tat i can handle it
feeling guilty of everything
u said u are fine so i shall trust u on tat...
let me go to my pig hole and do some self talk
appreciate u for being honest
hhhmm this is worst dan telling him dan i hate him even though i dun...
at least for tat i could cry it out and say it...
okay tats it wads done is done..
clear up the mess and move on
mmm and i have come to the conclusion tat ian shall be my idol forever along wid lambert
and i am off to to being a girl wid an open heart to welcome new ppl tat is coming into my life
so much for being crazy over him eh???
nah i just figure 5 years i maybe a little too old...
no worries though i will still be crazy over ian and lambert
and still actively watch his shows and listen to lambert's music
for the rest of my life i shall
and hope tat my bf/husband wun get jealous
goodnight! byebye

2011-08-20T01:44:00.000+08:00

hey guys using my phone to blog again...
hence i wun be able to put punctuations...
mmm ytd was well a eventful day i would say
uh huh still trying to cramp in all my socio stuff into my head
and i am doing it at snail pace...
gonna be faster dan this tmr..
oh and i am so high cuz hehe ian allowed me to follow his twitter account xp
hahaha oh so high now and bloody no punctuation and caps for me to use
to show how high i am...haha
nvm just imagine la hahaha
okay pretty late now
shall finish my last bit of socio and dan i shall head to bed
bye xp haha apparently xp is the only emocon i can use to show my expression my non verbals...haha byebye

2011-08-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

hey guys! second post of the day!
anyway my dad went to check out the model company for me
and he said tat they are a small company and do very little advertisement..
have to pay hundred plus to get a photo shoot done
to post our photo on the website
and slowly wait for ppl or organisation to choose us...
okay tat being said..
my model bubble is burst....
haiya we all gotta start from somewhere rite?
but ya la my parents wun let me pay a hundred plus bucks and wait for jobs...
so yeah that bubble is pretty much burst and yeah back to being a student
a normal student in a poly -.-
oh well life is like tat i just have to deal wid it!
okay bye!

2011-08-19T00:19:00.000+08:00

i think it was kenji who tried to pinch my head..FAILED:Dteehee
ahlalalal hello:D
so happy today cuz get to talk heart to heart wid my mates:D
hhmm so hilarious ar they all~~~
yeah and dan they made me go crazy!!!
oh today psycho paper was......
so -.- can
chin chin told us tat the erickson theory thing was important
and so i spend most of my time memorising it
and it did not come out! ggaaahh
instead all the weirds stuff came out and i was lost..
okay so nvm test liao dan forget it luh
so went to tm wid some of my classmates to get the teachers' day present
we stop like quite long at the shop to make mugs for them:D
cute max!!!!
dan shop around~ yeah we are pro at doing self care:D
ah and dan we went toy r us and dan we went crazy... 17 18 acting like 5 year olds...
HAHAHA yeah okay i think we stayed there quite long...:D
dan they went to get dinner while i went to buy gong cha:D
yup dan went of to T1 to chit chat
and we are like mad crazy.... started talking about going to other countries
and ppl there who mistook us as japenese!
hahaha ah good times~ trip to europe i miss it!!!!
okay minus the scary hotel room where by the room temperature was sauna hot
and the hotel room tat has tat ghostly feel...
oh and the GINGER BEER!!!*faints*
yeah dan started to talk about on the fringe!!!!
yeah okay tat was when i really went crazy...HAHAH
ya la cuz we were talking about Ian and heh my friend the friend know him eh~
happy~ LOL not like i know him like tat-.-
oh wells~ nvm at least i know a freind who have a friend who knows him (V)
okay i shall stop going high over tat...
okay i am still high
no i am just crazy...
OH and hor today wear class tee!!
felt like i was wearing the pirated superman tee man!!!
cuz it says ss in the diamond..hahha
and everywhere we go ppl were like
SUPERMAN! WOAH SUPERMAN!
HAHAH funny sia singaporeans~
no la we not superman! we are social specialist!
okay sound so chim...we are just future social workers!
one big crazy bunch of us~ hahah
okay i shall stop here! byebye:D
off to write my essay on wad i will be doing five years from now..
give me a break...-.-
BYE!

2011-08-16T10:48:00.000+08:00

wad an emo post a posted for the previous one..
hmmmm nvm
anyway i got a shopping list out!
i plan to buy:
1.a pair of toms shoes:D or cotton on one if i realise tat toms shoe do not look good on me...
2.a big brown side carrier bag lala
3.a 'leather' jacket
4.a dress
5.high cut shoe!
okay dun ask me why i want them for
i just want them because i want them
and i really need to be off studying but i am not doing so
ggaaahhh my eye is red again
i think it is because of all the smoke and stuff..
major dislike! hope it will get better tmr!
hopefully it will vanish! oh well~ byebye:D

2011-08-14T01:25:00.000+08:00

hello guysa i think it was ytd the last time i posted haha
posting wid my phone on my bed
which means i cannot put emocons....
so u shall read this post in my style haha
like imagine me reading it haha
okay so blogging wid my phone aint easy...hhmmm
no choice cause i am lazy to turn on my laptop..ahhaha typical me
yeah have decided to quit guitar and instead find a job
and do volunteering work at the same time
it would free up more time i guess and let me do wad i want
and earn money hahaa so it is good
at least i wun have towork so hard next time to pay off my uni bills teehee
suffer less and not be like my sisters muhahaha
i think i am smarter in tat sense...haha
oh well my sis is not gonna allow me to work as a part time model
she say later i get cheated or smt..
part of me thinks tat she is jealous...
okay but it does not matter...
i shall still find a job and work and earn money...teehee
okay blogging with phone really not easy and i am starting to feel sleepy...
sucks i still have to finish tat chapter before i can sleep..
though i think i will fall asleep soon...as usual i am a pig..
my eyes hurt..oo dunno wads wrong this time round..
i think i shld go to my table there and blog cuz my sis i gonna slp...
i shld learn to keep peace now...and stop creating wars...
i will die someday becuz of it...
haix..feel so lonely...
hahaha i am gonna complain tat i am lonely in the sense tat i am single...
hahaha wads new eh? nothing...
left my sec sch and practically half of my friends got bf liao...
and i am still forever single...hahah well at least my close friends are single too
we can like set up a single for more dan seventeen years club le lo...
i am hungry... anyway being single is good
do wad i want hahahalook at guys widout feeling guilty
answer to no one..at least i still have my freedom
the freedom to do wadever i want
okay so much for self consolling..
actually being single sometimes make me feel unwanted..
make me feel ungly...and thus self esteem drops...
haha i think i study too much le..
yeah but it does affect me in tat sense lo..like maybe there is smt wrong wid my character..
maybe i am too tall.
maybe i am too skinny
maybe i am ugly..
maybe it is just me..
but all of the points can be fought back
becuz there was this stranger
a guy from ite came and told me tat he thinks i am pretty
more like his friends la..they came and told me tat tat guy thinks tat i am pretty..
tat guy totally blush...hahaha esteem boost haha
model company ppl come and tell me they want me as model..
okay so maybe i aint tat bad...and is not like i am really unwanted rite?
i think i am disclosing alot alot...oh well i shall stop here and go to slp..
my eyes cant take itt anymore... byebye
so i still have one last point to fight..and tat is my charater..
maybe it sux tats why...
oh well bye

2011-08-12T13:22:00.000+08:00

haix...exams
but no exam mood how?
tsktdsk gotta finish 7 chapters of psycho today!!!! i will do it!
anyway on wednesday, on my way home
this lady stop me while i was walking towards the tampines interchange
and she gave me a card and said she is from this company whereby they hunt for models
for advertisments...like for m1 starhub etc
muhahahahahhaah i look at the card and dan i realise i recieve a similar card at bugis before
so i went hom eand told my parents and my parents decided tat i can go give it a shot
after they go research on it
apparently my dad's friend works in advertising thing so he can ask if the company
tat the lady represented was real and not fake one la
so yeah hopefully it is for real dan i can get my part time job
which is really part time hahahah
not bad eh my da jie only got card after she got into uni
while i got card since sec4 muhahahaha
so see my dear sisters stop saying tat i am fat or ugly
because i am not
ppffttt well for once i beat them in smt~ okay i shall go take a quick shower and dna i shall go study lo~ byebye:D

2011-08-09T00:50:00.000+08:00

project chio-ness!
hahah okay i am aimming for long hair with curls and coloured:D
and shall try to find a contact lens tat my eye can tahan
hello ppl!
ytd went to watch lion king and i think tat the money is well spent
the music was awesome the songs were nice!
some are still stuck in my head
it was fun to watch because they added somesingaporean elements in it
and the jokes were funny~
yeah and marina baysands is freaking huge~
how i wish i was watching it today and not ytd
could have more time to study
cuz today 's test was a disaster.....
haix i did study lor like a week before hand but dunno why my mind just went blank
how nice
hope my projects can pull up my marks!
parents went on a holiday!!!
and my sis friends are camping over tonight
so tats means i get to slp on my parents' king size bed~
lovely! just the thing i need to recover my lost of slp today
i really could not slp last nite
haix maybe tat is also why i could not rmb a damn thing even after studying for so long
tmr can wake up late! and dan i shall start on my pyscho and stuff
so i will be prepared for the remaining papers:D
at least i can still aim to do well for the remaining 4 papers!
i shall be positive positive positive!
ahhaha okay i shall be off to shop at gmarket as a form of destress~ and dan i shall go off to slp~
yay gdnite peeps! adios:D

2011-08-07T18:00:00.000+08:00

hey guys it has been a long time since i blog
i am currently doing self care:D
yes i study more dan i tot i would so yeah!!!
at night imma gonna watch lion king wid my sis! excited much!
yay! just not sure wad to have for dinner eh
actually i got to be getting ready by now....
hhmmm nvm
i have not really finish studying my dynamics thing for tmr test
i miss out on one small part
but the good thing is that the test starts at 3 tmr
which means i can wake up early tmr to revise before i go to sch:D
yay okay so i must share a bout my week
cuz it was a good good week:D
monday i went to meet my mummy at pp where she work
dan i bought like two things from cotton on for the total price of $15!!!
i bought a high waisted shorts and a dress:D
wads even better is when i found out the original price!!!
the high waisted shorts was originally $39.95! i bought it for 10!
and the dress was originally $24.95!i bought it for 5
omg super good deal rite~
i kept me happy from monday all the way till wed:D
hahaha
dan tues i finally dun have to wake up to go to sch for project!!
so i met charmaine to go COCCOGELO for ice cream
and to study of course!
yes we had katong laksa and 1 and a half cup of ice cream!
muhahhahaahahahahahahahah okay we are such pigs~
anyway after studying we went to de-stress a little by shopping for half an hour~
hahahah she bought things from cotton on i bought nothing! i know how to do self-control okay~
yay dan went home:D
dan wed we were all preparing for the counsellin gica
and dan one of my classmate came and gave me a pencil case which says bang head here
i at first tot it was a joke
cuz he said it is my belated bdae present...
and dan i was like erm are u serious cuz now is aug...
and dan he was serious lor~
made me feel happy for tat day cuz tat morning i realise i got only one bdae present this year:(
anyway tat makes two now~
dan nothing else happen for the rest of the week....
oh and my eldest sis is away in sweden~
whihc means no scoldings from her for one entire month~:D:D
this is call long time pleasure:D
oh dan tat means she will buy smt for me too~ whee~
i shall take the chance to fully enjoy the peace tat is given to me~
after exams tat is...hhahaahah okay i shall read up on the remaing dynamics
and dan off i go to watch lion king~
byebye:D

2011-08-02T10:21:00.000+08:00

is it better to act like i dun mind

or to say tat i do?

it is too late now isnt it?

i just have to live wid it

2011-07-31T00:35:00.000+08:00

hello:D haiyo
i know i promise to continue my post on the fashion parade thing rite?
but dan hor i have to do on efor my class blog..
so u guys shall go to the class blog and read it la~
save my time:D
okay i am just lazy:D
so there scroll ur cursor to the friend links there
and find ss1101 blog:D
and dan u can see my post there~
yes i am lazy!
anyway today i did study
i feel smarter!
okay anyway i just told a joke..
one of my friend said tat i am like the goldfish on her tee
and i told her no cuz my eyes are small
goldfish eyes are like O.O
and mine are like o.o
haha get it?
okay nvm i know i am lame~ i like it though
random jokes:D randomness~
okay time to go blog about the fashion parade lo~:D
byebye~

2011-07-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

if u dun mean ur sorry dun say it
dun say it just cuz u dun want make things big
say it cuz u mean it
or take it back
check wad u said
u dun telly
dun ask me to address my faulty assumption
dun be contradicting
u really piss me off today

2011-07-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

hey guys~
this is me wid makeup:D
okay not much of a difference....LOL
look closely!!! got difference!!!
okay so today was mad...
i am so so tired already in the morning
maybe is becuz the weather this morning is so damn freakin good...
okay so after the socio lesson
which i was quite proud of cuz i scored 15 /20
widout studying for the revision quiz
chey revision only rite... hahahahah the real thing have yet to come
but nvm i shall be ready by dan!
okay dan had counselling tuitorial..
i was half dozing off...
totally restless......
zone in zone out zone in zone out...
okay dan when lesson are finally over i was like yay!!!! over!!!!!
okay dan had rehearsal for the nurses day thing
blahblahblah
dan ate lunch and did a little of the project
which is my last project:D:D happy max!!!
i am suppose to be planning my project speech..
oh fcuk.. i have to go to sch at 8 tmr....
okay...i am so not going guitar tmr....
i am dead liao.............i even feel like skipping gsm....
omg!! omg!! omg!!!
okay dan after lunch we had to get ready for the parade thing...
and dan 3/4 of the class was missing
cuz they all went to get free shirt....
okay so shirley did my makeup:D
wa the first time in my life i get a proper makeup:D
erm okay it isnt a full makeup cuz only blush, eyeliner, eyeshadow and lipgloss was use...
but nontheless..i still feel pretty!!! like i going for prom sia~
okay... the thing wid prom is cuz my sec sch no prom
and i am upset over it.... haiyo....
no prom means i miss out a lot of things u know..
like when my sis were 16...
they got their first pair of decent heels...had make up...did their hair...pretty dress...
and when i was 16.. i had none of the above.....pppffffttttt
oh damn.... nvm... next year next year....
hahah okay so the whole thing started... and we were all so high
scream like mad...okay i am too tired to continue...
can i finish blogging it tmr?
i really want to slp...
my eyes cant take it anymore..
okay i promise i will blog tmr! so till tmr! goodnite!
so guys! promise i wun do it again
cuz i am really too tired and i cant focus on wad i am suppose to type...
wad i want to type
and dan it will become a very messy post....
a confusing one too so i shall stop here to spare u guys fromt the torture:D
byebye~

2011-07-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

oh no!
tmr is the day!
walk in heels and skirt and makeup!
i hope i survive:D
yup i should stop stressing over this...
if not cannot slp dan tmr not pretty:P
hahahahahah yup i shld probably go slp now
oh today i read an interesting article in looking in looking out
was kinda 'touched'
aiya dunno how to explain la!
anyway i think it is the best textbook i ever own
excluding my bio one!
my sec sch bio textbook is my life:D
next would be my history books:d
they are my treasures:D
and dan now i can add looking in looking out into my list:D
i love them:D
teehee! okay off to bed i shall go~ so goodnite:D will probably most photos on my day tmr..
bye~

2011-07-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

hey guys!
ice cream i am craving for ice cream!!!!
not the one in the photo but the one over at parkway tat side
coccogelo!!! omfg!!!! i want it now!!!
i dunno how long never go there le
and just by thinking tat i am on a study date next tues at coccogelo makes me feel happy
and dan i wish time can fly...
but dan i dun want time to fly now cuz i am hardly done wid revision for exams
and it is so freaking near
today i took like the whole day to study one chapter of interpersonal
cuz i got distract by a computer game -.-
sometimes i am just so disappointed wid myself
and wish i can doing smt tat make myself proud....
anyway i am blogging now and gonna study another chapter of interpersonal
life sux when exams are near...
and dan u realise tat u wasted all ur precious time doing god knows wad
haix on a brighter side
once exam are over i can go shopping!
and i already plan on where to go:D
shall go over to city plaza and anchorpoint or smt like tat
teehee why? cuz the two are ones tat i have never been to before
and tat they have really cheap things
so i heard from watching budget barbie:D
yup! and dan i will shop till like there is no tmr!
buy cny clothes too!!!
which is always the best reason i can give to my mum:D
hahhahah dan she cant stop me from buying cuz i need new clothes for chinese new year wad~
since i did not post for a long time
meaning proper post i shal post a little longer for today:D yeah~
i think my mum sot sot liao
ytd told me i cant have bf till i go uni
LOL it isnt the first time she told me this
she have been telling me since i step into poly
the first day of sch till now
in return i told i shall not get married and stick to her till i die
well obviously i am joking..
but i really cant stand it le la
wad era are we in now????
okay nvm...cuz my parents are from the old old era...so they are forgiven
who knows i may break a rule or two sometimes:D
cuz rules are meant to be broken!! hahahah
okay on to the next topic!
i think i blog wid no depth at all...
but nvm it is how i want it to be!
okay so i learn tat sometimes words can really make someone feel bad
and cause them to stop doing smt they really like
went jogging on fri
and had a chat wid one of my friend
and learn things!
okay so we were on this topic about running
and dan it went on to ppl teasing us
dont ask me how we change the topic
we just have spaghetti mind:D
and wad mean things ppl say really do affect us in the long run
be it lowering our self-esteem
or to stop doing wad we love
i can rmb and i think i will forever rmb
wad this particular girl said to me in sec sch
she made me feel sad and lower my self esteem
okay wadever she is gone now! and i did wad i promise to myself
i had the last laugh so we shall let it be
oh ya...on wed i think it will be the morst day ever in my life
see la horkuan wad trouble u got urself into
tsktsk wed i got to parade in skirt and heels
skirt and heels
skirt and heels
it does not sound like me rite?
cuz it isnt me lor!
okay so i have to parade in the costume made by my fellow classmates and myself
which is made out of recycled items
yes i think the dress is very nice
i just have to deal wid the uneasiness on wed
the dress make me feel like a princess though
HAHAHAHAHHAHA i hope i do not fall on wed
i really really hope tat i wun fall!!!
it would be so ps if i do
dan i wun know where to hide my face
and the best part is...i cant wear my specs...
so i would be partially blind
and walking in heels
wid a skirt..........
and therefore i really hope i wun fall!!
if not i really no need get married liao
and dan my mum can put her mind to ease....
i still want to eat my ice cream though
hahhahahaah oh and my right eye!!
i dunno wad is wrong wid it........
it is red again..... how weird
maybe i got some eye disease..
i shld go get it check out hhmmm yes i shld!
okay it is a long post!
so it is time for me to go back to my books!
okay so byebye! hopefully i will post tmr!
so goodnite! byebye and see u soon~

2011-07-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

hi guys!!
my nose is like a tap now
having runny nose
and i think it is gonna drop off..
i keep yawning but i am not tired
oh no
i think i over exercise today.....
i ran 4 km today...
after like one month of not running
but my legs not tired
and i recover quite fast...
my legs aint aching....
it is so weird!!!!
and dan i now have runny nose?!
and i keep yawning?!
smt must be wrong wid me....
oh well i shall live wid it and dan
i shall go to slp now!!!
tmr is mugging day!!!
i shall succeed in mugging!!!!!
muhahahahaaha if my nose aint much of a trouble...tat is..
okay~ i shall go off to sleep now!!
after i pop some pills in:D nites:D

2011-07-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

hi guys!
first i would like to say...
I FELL ASLEEP IN GSM AGAIN TODAY!!!
and dan the next thing tat i want to say is....
I ATE A LOT TODAY!!!
okay i had zha ziang mian and watermelon juice for lunch...
mix rice plus sushi plus hotdog waffle for dinner
is tat a lot or is tat a lot?
lastly i would like to say...
GUYS SHLD STOP WEARING PANTS TAT IS SO FREAKING TIGHT!!!!
hahahah okay cuz today nicole and i saw this guy wearing super tight pants
and he walk funnily and it was just...funny....sorry for being mean...
anyway i am really tired but i am trying to finish up my projects..
and finally i am gonna go jogging tmr:D i am excited!
okay below is another quiz tat i took:D

How will my guy be like:

Your man is a lot of fun to be with. His talk is charming and because of this he always seems to be surrounded by girls. You'll just have to live with this and not let it bother you. If you let him know you're jealous, it's likely that he would turn his back on you without too many second thoughts. To be with him, you have to give him plenty of room to move, trust him, and allow him to be independent. You should also remember to be independent yourself. He enjoys going out to parties and likes you to have fun along with him too, so make the most of his love of life.

some how it is true in someways..
anyway if it is the truth dan i would have to work on the jealous part..
oh gosh i need to work hard..
anyway exams are round the corner...
cant wait for it to be over:D
dan i can go shopping like mad:D
whee~ so many places so go!!!
oh and i shall stop here now to go through my project once before i sleep!!
nites! oh and i have no idea where to start from for my exams:(
byebye:D

2011-07-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

hey guys pretty bored:D
dunno wad to blog...
so i took quizes:D
lalal hahahah and dan i refuse to post it on fb cuz need to tag ppl...
which i am extremely lazy to do so...
so i just copy and paste it here
free for ppl to read
and they dun have to do it:D hahah so here goes:

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

yay tats about all for today:D too long will make u guys sleepy:d
see i know u guys so well~ lalala
kay off to do projects:D nites:D